Man.

Today was a slooooowwww day,
Waste of a Saturday.
I thought I was getting a haircut,
mom decided to go out shopping instead -_- Smh.

Oh well, I guess it can wait another week or so.
Lately,
I've been feeling really content with myself,
but not satisfied..?

I confuse myself.

I talked to Debby for an hour 30 minutes straight today,
"Yeee im juzz chillin wif mah homiez" LOLOL.
Of course, talking to Debby also makes me miss Amy too,
where are you?! You haven't talked to me in weeks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0BAssXgeHs

That video makes me tear up each time, no homo.
It has a deeper meaning to it, the message is sweet.
The guy meets a girl by chance as he is taking pictures in the park,
she ends up being in his shot.

She apologizes and runs off.
Going to her workplace as a hair stylist assistant[?], she meets the man again
and, just as if fate intended it, they reunite again.

They start hitting it off and become a very cute and happy couple,
then things start to get serious..

One day, the girl goes through the man's studio and looks around at pictures,
and by accident, she spills the negative solution into her eyes, and she gets rushed to
the hospital, she goes blind.

The guy, frustrated, has to make one of the hardest choices of his life..


....

It goes to the operating room, the man and girl are soon together holding hands..
The man closes his eyes for one last time before going under the knife..


We see the girl awaken with her eyes perfectly fine, getting used to them
after being bandaged for a long time,
going back to the race track she went to with the man not too long ago,

where we see him with sunglasses on, sitting by himself. The girl then realizes what had happened,
then starts to break down and cry.
The man, not realizing himself that anyone was there, just walks past her.



THE POINT OF ALL THIS?
It's a lesson to be learned, a stupid one to some, a very meaningful one to others.
It shows us that we have to be willing to do whatever it is for the person we truly love.
Now, I'm not telling you to go and donate your major organs to your significant other,
but have the self respect and compassion for your lover to take a few hits to the balls for them.

People always coming to me for advice on how they can keep up with their relationship with their gf's or bf's, and they worry about the future.. can't you just look to the present and enjoy what happens now? You need to be willing to take all the slaps and punches and heavy blows that people throw at you when you believe you found a person you want to stay with.

No matter what race, color, height, sex, weight, culture we are, we can all agree that we need someone else to complete us. In my opinion, it takes a lot of guts to say that you would do that kind of stuff for another person, but hey, when you're in love, you do all sorts of crazy things.

Even when you have to wait for that person all day just to even get a chance to talk
Even when you stay up till 2am or later for a reply or text back
Even when you think they left you hanging but you still hang on anyways
Even when you feel you aren't good enough for that person
Even when you shouldn't even try to wait for them anymore

You continue to pull and go through, and why?
You're in love. It's all sentimentals and cutesy movie and tv show nonsense,
until you experience it yourself.
It doesn't have to be perfect.
Your first kiss doesn't have to be on the balcony of some giant golden mansion,
it can be in the mall parking lot.
Your first date doesn't have to be dinner at a high end restauraunt with a 3-month
reservation just to even get a table for 2 in,
it can be In-n-out burger and fries.

Love is beautiful in all shapes and forms,
and regardless of whether or not people approve of you or not,
if you and your other are happy, then so be it.

I just want YOU to know, that this blog was kind of inspired by you.
Thank you for always showing me kindness even though I don't give you
any sometimes, for learning to see past my mistakes and struggles and
constantly pushing you away.

I know this is hard, distance makes it even more challenging.
But when I see you, I promise you I'll make all these conversations
have meant something.

<3