A Reminder to the Love

Don't take the ones you love in vain.
Really.

I just learned that today, and boy, does it hurt a lot.
I happen to know a girl. Her name is Jessica. Jessica Kim.
And let me tell you something about Jessica Kim.
She's the greatest thing thats ever happened to me.
Nothing will ever be able to replace her.
For probably, a year and half, even though we've have on's and off's.
Nothing will ever replace her.
Jessica...fucking....Kim.

Where would I be without her? I'll tell you where.
Right now, Let's see.. I'm about to go into the 10th grade.
She's been with me since..probably the middle of 7th, 8th grade? Haha
I don't even really remember the true date. Time flies when you feel like you've known the person for so much longer.

We started talking on myspace.
Typical, right? How everyone gets their first friends from myspace.
No Life? Hahaha, you'd be suprised the friends you can truly make on myspace.
I honestly can say that she was my first friend.

I remember the first comment she sent me..

Jul 5, 2007 7:43 PM

heyy~~
thx for adding btw. :]
i'm JESSICA. ha x]

She doesn't talk that anymore, haha.
I'm glad I got to see her grow up to be such a good person.
I'll never forget our conversations,
the weirdest things we said to each other,
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Jul 5, 2007 8:05 PM

LMFAO! sonn, you are hilarious. xDD
oh man. haha.
i'm a nice toasty, golden almond brown tannish color. not frikkin zebra patterned like you!!
muahuwaha. x]]] jk.
you want me? haha.
this christian boy is just my friend. hah we like to joke around. :]
but don't you have a gf? xDDD

No I didn't Jessica! At least, not one that I intended on staying with if I can remember even dating back then.

Jul 5, 2007 8:17 PM

HAHA. i'm not jealous at all sir. ;D
i have a bf.
but i "do" so want you. xDDDDDD jk.

oh man. speaking of starbucks... uh, i LOVE starbucks. white chocolate mocha frapp for me. YEHHH~

hehe. lol. i live in washington.
not that far from you. puahuwaha.
i might go down to our vacation house down there soon though.

meet you at disneyland. :)
rofl. where in cali do you live at? xP
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HAH, You wish you were jk dear.
Our distance made my heart grow fonder for you, like the saying went..

The conversations went on for a long time,
And then. Something she said along our most randomest conversations.
I don't remember what I said to her,
but her comment led me into something that I believe would open up to be our beautiful and happy relationships together,

Jul 6, 2007 9:35 PM

awh. jeff.
how could i not want you?..

you're so amazing.
a truly rad guy fasho~

i'll always love you.
no matter what the circumstances are..
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It's been so long since I've heard those words been said to me.
Its been almost a year since that day where she promised me such words, and yet it feels like they've been forever drifted away into the passages of time.
She'll always love me. No matter what the circumstances are.

And she's held that close to her for all this time,
Whether it be when I was being an asshole.
Whether it be when I was pushing her away.

She always kept her promise true to me,
and I made myself promise also to her,
"I'll always be here for you no matter what happens to me"

And I still keep that promise to myself now. I really truly think that
I'm never going to stop holding up that promise.
High school. Before I know it. 11th grade.
Before I know it. I'm graduating college.
Before I know it. I'm going to be looking for a job, getting all ready for my first real job interview.
Before I know it. I'm going to have a kid.

Rewind..
My ups...

Jul 10, 2007 1:42 PM

jeffy. <333>-----------------------------------------

My downs...

Jul 17, 2007 10:07 PM

gosh. jeff.
why must you always put me hella down...
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AND THROUGH IT ALL, I CAN SAY I KEPT MY PROMISE.
Let me just take this time to ask you all,
especially the boys in relationships right now,

Are you guys treating your woman the way she should be treated?
Treat her FUCKING good.
I'm sorry that not all of you can have the fairy tale ending you all wanted,
but then you're just going to have to accept it and be happy for her,
keep her happy and continue you to be good to her no matter what happens.
She can have a new bf. A first fionce, a first HUSBAND.
But, she'll always have a place in her hearts for her,
As long as you know you can say you did her good in your time spent together.


As our time together started thinning out,
So did our patience.
I can say I lost her before,
She grew tired of me.

Jul 17, 2007 10:15 PM

i'm done w/ you.
leave me alone.
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But there still was reason enough to love her, and to continue to be here for her.
There are so many things that girls go through on a daily basis, that guys have no idea.
A guy can walk in and be like "heyyy baby <3" size="2">I'm going to miss our 9 hour long phone calls,
Our talks and webcamming on msn,
sneaking around, finding every opportunity we can to talk to each other,
just to see each other.

I guess this is just my last shot at trying to make things better,
an immediate reaction to the reality I faced today.

Jun 19, 2008 8:34 PM

youre erased from my life forever.
dont come back. because i sure as hell am not.
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To think, just exactly 17 days ago, 1 year ago,
She was telling me how she would not even dare think of anything less of me than being someone she totally admires, let alone..
Never coming back to my life.

Some of you will probably be telling me:

"There will be others"
True. But not like Jessica.

"You'll find better"
Who said I wanted better? Jessica was fine.

"You and her didn't match up"
I never said I was going to be her eternal soulmate, I just wanted a good friend. And there she was.

"Why do you care about her so much"
She gave me reasons beyond words and understanding to put here on this blog, just know that..
Deep down, theres truly never going to be another Jessica Kim that I admire like her.

I will find others, I will like them more than Jessica,
I will truly become happier.

But she has not been replaced, and will never leave my heart..
For truly..

I'm sorry my future gf's, signficant others, and wife.

But, I willingly have gave my heart to someone.
Jessica Kim has it. Let it be known publically, from the bottom of my heart..

I'll never forget you.
I titled this "A reminder to the lovers" Because not only is it to the truly strong couples,
that they should avoid all the mistakes I've gone through this roller coaster of a year or so and a half,
with her.

Don't be like me.
For those of you who are saying "I dont want to be hurt, I should let her go"
And all that,
total crap.

Fall and be hurt together, dont punish yourself
and let the other remain as though nothing happened,
it would make your sacrifice in vain.

If..somehow you're reading this,
I want you to know that. I'll still be here waiting for you.
Always will, always have been.

I love you.

I love you all.
-jeff