Dang,

I think lately I'm tripping out over nothing. I guess you can say that lately, I've been somewhat a bit of an asshole. I've been over my head in cockiness, flirting with every girl that comes my way, and getting into situations I don't think I can imagine myself ever being in looking back.

What happened to the church boy that always put school first before girls?
Sometimes I wish that girls were not so.. girly.

Maybe then I could've gotten my act together before I had to put put into
summer school.
SUM. MER. SCHOOL.


As in, school over the summer? When you're really off supposed to be having fun as much as possible before you let all that fun go for hxc work time? That summer. I guess I can say that lately, I've been playing around and messing up my future instead of buckling down and being serious about this. High school ain't a time to fuck around, and this is a bad place to do it now, not even a junior or senior yet. I'm a freakin' sophmore, and already I'm starting to crack.
I know this is going to sound like every other "teen high school drama crush", and I bet it is. The guy always says "oh I can't get her out of my mind" and then later on, boom he's off watching something he isn't supposted to be, or doing something that his parents wouldn't bear to see him do anyways.



Lately, I've been talking to this girl. Her name is ________. We haven't talked much, just a "hey whats up" "oh not much, you?" "haha!" "haha" sort of thing. She's DANNNNG CUTE. Like, one of those 'people that stand out in a group picture' type of looks! I know it sounds hella corny, because we've only been talking for like a few days. Me being my weirdo self, trying the most indirect ways of finally getting to communicate with her.

And, ugh! I'm so stupid. Saying the randomest stuff like, "ahahaha sooooo..the sky is blue" "ahaha, do you watch disney + pixar movies?" And all that! CMON, I'm BETTER THAN THAT!
At least come up with something that makes sense..

Continuing with my story. She's really cute, but I think she's interested in someone else. And idk if she's reading this or w/e, but how does she know that guy isn't just like everyone else? "but..he's different.." they might say. But, then again, everyone is, not every 'guys are all the same'..are the same. That isn't always a good thing, that's sometimes a bad thing. And, not trying to be hella possesive or anything, but I'm just saying. I think I can do a pretty good job of being a faithful and honest bf. I mean, crown me biggest flirt in the history of FOREVER,

But when I have a relationship, I'm serious and dedicated about that. And, being around so many girls, and having a little bit of their relationship stories spoken to me, I feel like I can kind of see whatevery kind of girl goes through, which I believe makes me a better candidate for a bf/gf, or just a friend/friend conversation with a girl when they need advice/venting. I guess all in all, I can say this blog was just a reminder to myself.

GET MY ACT TOGETHER.
LOSE THE BOOKS,
LOSE THE GIRL.
LOSE THE GIRL,
LOSE ANY OTHER FORM OF DETERMINATION FOR TRYING.

Let this also be a reminder to the guys.
I know how hard it is to keep your mind focused when theres a girl you're having a fatttttt crush on[trust me, i'm THERE already], but you have to try harder..for them, and yourself.

How are you going to pay the bills when you're 30-something, when your wife is about to leave with your kids because you're working at mcdonalds cause you never went to the college you wanted to go to cause you screwed around too much in your younger days?

McDonalds is starting to cut people from the employment, cause they're getting overemployed.
Try Starbucks, underachiever.

This isn't meant to discourage anyone, only saying...
Stop yourself from making mistakes while you can still make them better.

-jeff