Ready.

So summer is officially coming to a close,
school is coming up.
I've been through lots of changing and
self reflection time, and I think I'm starting to see
where I am, and where I want to be.

I met a girl some time back, and I liked her very very dearly,
she meant a lot to me and she was everything I could want,
and still is.
I miss her very dearly, but I'm afraid that we can only be friends.
I was too blind, and too caught up in the moment to see what
I've been missing the things going on all around me-
but all these are nobodys fault but mine.

Real talk. I feel like I've been put on a roller coaster!
I was psyched, getting on this ride. How amazing it would feel.
Up and up I went, even though some bumps made me feel like I wanted to get off,
but then I thought to myself, "No. Its worth it." and so I kept pushing forward,
until I finally got to the very peak- the high, where everything just stopped;
I looked at everything behind and below me, what I went through to get to that point.

I learned to appreciate things more this summer.

I realized she liked someone else, and I am probably just being third wheel status haha.
Then, there goes my roller coaster example: when the ride goes down, and I feel as though
I'm about to fall off and never come back. But there I am:

Still breathing. Still alive, still awake-
Its been a good summer! I finally get to take that seriously now.
This coaster is coming to its close, where it stops and I get let off of it, so that the next guy can get on it.
Who knows? Maybe that guy will be lucky, and the ride won't stop for him..

If you're reading this: Thanks. I'm alright that it turned out this way, either way- I still care about you and I still want you to know that nothing changed. I still miss you very dearly.

I shouldn't be too sad about this, theres probably someone out there for me,
or maybe it just wasn't our time yet. We'll see.


Now that its out of the way I can focus on school hopefully.

you are seriously everything i could ever want. why can't i ever be good enough for you?..