Hard.

Its becoming a tough job to handle, just trying to be myself.
I haven't been feeling like "me" lately, been trying to keep things out of my mind
by busying myself with tasks, like playing RO or Halo 3, or even OMGPOP.

Why am I having such a hard time getting back in the game?
Where is my mind at? Why isn't it where its supposed to be?
I want to be UPLIFTED, and encouraged!
I can't just act like a tough guy and do this on my own anymore.
I'm not fronting anymore. I need support. Whether I admit that to everyone or not.

I'm stressing hardcore.
Schools coming up. How am I gonna deal?
AP exams and SATs and ACTs..

Books, tests, quizzes, books, reviews, books..

It'll be more of me than I am part of me.
But I can't let that happen.
I want to be in control of everything there is about me.
But why can't I feel that?
I don't even know whats driving me to write this all.
Its all coming from my feelings, I guess. My mood is encouraging this.

Maybe I'm just lonely.