Gonna be busy..reading..

Wednesday

Is a strange day for me.
I feel very..strange.

Camp is in 2 days and I'm still not sure if I'm going.
To be honest, I'd rather go to camp and be withdrawn
from school than to be staying there and missing out on it.

The last thing I want to do is miss out on this opportunity.
I will try my hardest to go.

I HAVE to go.

Btw, I got my cam back.
So tomorrow's update will have pics in it! Yaay

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4 day recap:

Friday: School, I was happy that our regular teacher ain't there, but instead we got a chill sub that didn't mind if we talked/slept all day. A good bonus for me. Went to youth hour, played some games, finally gave Erica her present! Went to Denny's afterwards, played some sugar packet table games. Bomb Friday, I knew this was the turnaround that I needed.

Saturday: Woke up early for the youth's car wash. It got pretty hot, good thing I brought my sunblock homie! Yeee, stayed at Stephen's house afterwards cause Kuya Dino had to go to work at 3-ish. Stayed there, took a nap, woke up, got dressed, got ready for Markeezy's 18th birthday dinner @ chili's. After we ate, we went to Nicole's house for devotion. It made me a step closer to finding myself....

Sunday: Church was fun. Ashley + Tita Christy came home today, had church...after church, changed into shorts cause it was hot and went to 6:13. Ate at In-n-out, played more table games..
except this time..I was on the losing side...a lot. I had to swallow 2 salt packets, 5 pepper packets, 2 packs of mustard, and a whole shot of ketchup. Gross. Came home around 10-11, but before that we went to go see a view near Bel Air and The Villages of a nighttime scape of San Jose. Beautiful. I want to take someone there someday!

Monday: Boring.

I hope the rest of the week goes well, and hopefully I can be able to get off and attend camp......
please pray that I do. Because it'll help me find who I am.

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Cats.

You already know about my day.
Boringggg.
Hopefully its gonna be crackin' tomorrow,
since its Friday.

I don't got much to say, so heres a cat video.



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Hell week, day 3

Today was a little better, but like the roller coaster of my life claims to be,
It went downhill also.

School was w/e. Same old, same old.
I just want these 10 days to pass quick.
Hopefully I can do all my ish early so I can still be able
to go to camp..

Which I really need right now.
Things are just getting really complicated,

I hope it'll straighten itself out this week.
Next week, will be a better week.
Thats all I'm hoping for.

Sorry for lack of pictures/exciting posts, lmao.
This week has been hectic.

So to make up for it, here.


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Tuesday

Is not much better.

I'm so tired of this class already..

After school,
Got some subways,
found out another one of my little baby cousins pass away..
Both Gianni and Gabrielle are gone, both my little girls.

Praying that the boys pull through.
Going down to LA this Saturday to come visit my Uncle and Auntie.

Hoping this week isn't all bad..
gotta stay up.


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Monday 7/13/09

Boring day today.
It was a draaaaaaggg,
I woke up at 9[planned to sleep in all day]
but mom woke me up.

Said I have summer school. WTFZ?!
Apparently, SC called at the last minute
and so I'm forced to go back to the nightmare that was
Geometry for me in the 9th grade.

I did decent to slightly okay, then it just bombed.
My counselors told me I'd have to bring that grade up
if I want to stay UCLA eligible, so here I am again

in Geometry from the 9th grade as an 11th grader. FML.
I showed up an hour late, and was already 7 sections behind.
Hopefully, not everyone was as quick, so I caught up fairly fast.

I still hated it.

Got home at 1:30, ate some kfc, did hw[still doing it, omfg]
took a break with some nutella and pan de sal.

I'm still doing hw.

It sucks not having a camera.
Will be back this week though.
HOPEFULLY!

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Hard.

Its becoming a tough job to handle, just trying to be myself.
I haven't been feeling like "me" lately, been trying to keep things out of my mind
by busying myself with tasks, like playing RO or Halo 3, or even OMGPOP.

Why am I having such a hard time getting back in the game?
Where is my mind at? Why isn't it where its supposed to be?
I want to be UPLIFTED, and encouraged!
I can't just act like a tough guy and do this on my own anymore.
I'm not fronting anymore. I need support. Whether I admit that to everyone or not.

I'm stressing hardcore.
Schools coming up. How am I gonna deal?
AP exams and SATs and ACTs..

Books, tests, quizzes, books, reviews, books..

It'll be more of me than I am part of me.
But I can't let that happen.
I want to be in control of everything there is about me.
But why can't I feel that?
I don't even know whats driving me to write this all.
Its all coming from my feelings, I guess. My mood is encouraging this.

Maybe I'm just lonely.

Hiking

Was intense and brutal on me. It challenged my physical and mental well being, and that of some of my youth group. While some of my youth group is currently in the PI and Cambodia for missionary work, who was left of us decided to go stay and do some fun hiking.

Who came:
Me
Stephen
Kuya Dino
Kuya Les
Kuya Wes
Janine
Maureen
JR

wish more came! But its good, we got all the athletics in our youth group to go. LOLZ jk,
It was fun. Hard, but fun. We should do something like that every weekend!

Lazy

I'm on it. I'll operate this in person one day

To update, not much has been going on lately for me to blog,
just been doing the thing and chillin..been getting my middle schooler on,
i've been sucked into Ragnarok and Anime again.
Both were back habits to break, but I'm in control.

Talked to dq tonight, WOMP the call dropped cause the phone ran out of battery..
Ate all day,

I gotta start the P90x soon..
Trying to put everything off, but its gonna end up coming back to me eventually!
Been staying up late a lot, I would always have plans to make a post, but I wouldn't
when I wanted to cause I'd get sidetracked watching Reborn..

I need new flatheads.
Not much of a post, but stay tuned for pics on wednesday.
Hiking in Alum Rock park.

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