Oh well,

Today was just one of those days.
Bittersweet, mostly bitter though.
I had tons of fun at church today,
felt really good.

I felt confidence, and encouragement, and all these things I never felt in a long time.
For once it just made me feel happy to be alive.

I had all the things a kid could ever want!
Loving parents, a cool bro, nice kicks, sick fits.
I got friends who are down for anything,
and I work hard in school and off school.

The only thing I lack..is her.
:/

Dude, how do you think I feel about this?
You always seem to ignore me when I most need you.
You never reply to calls or texts when I felt like I needed them most.

Am I invisible?
You have your own life to live, and I don't expect you to always include me in it.
I know that you aren't sure about us yet. But to me, it felt like you were!
Today just really made me feel different, and idk.
I'm still here, I'm still waiting. But, how much longer can I keep this up?
You only pay attention when theres something benefiting you in it.
All I ask for in return is your love. Is that so wrong?
The guys around you like you. A lot. And you said, not to try to win you over.
That was before I realized that I was in a race.
Who gives a fck if I can run a 5:34 mile. If I can't even win this race,
Why bother trying to win any other ones?


I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love.
From the very first time I blessed my eyes on you, girl,
My heart says follow t'rough.
But I know, now, that I'm way down on your line,
But the waitin' feel is fine:
So don't treat me like a puppet on a string,
'Cause I know I have to do my thing.
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb;
I wanna know when you're gonna come - soon.

Tomorrow I'm gonna ask you how your day was, and how you are.
Like I always do.
Nothing changed, this is just me expressing myself.
Whether you take this into consideration is all up to you,
but either way It's still not gonna change.

When I see you next, coming up soon eh?
I'm gonna have the biggest smile on my face,
and hopefully then you can see why I care about you.
I never really showed it to you in person before.
But I hope by then you can see that I do.

Even more than every other guy whose entered into your life as I did.