Disregard my olddddd
previous post.
Love ain't so bad,
just not for me right now
Theres a cutie I'm talking to
but I really really am trying not to make it serious this time
Or fear I get another.. "accident" -__-
School tomorrow,
I really don't want to go.
Got to get my grades up too, Jesus.
All my grades are on borderline to a better letter,
but Idk whats holding me back.
UGH. I want all A's.
I miss my friends
and I gotta save up some cash for my huge ass shopping list before christmas sells out everything
Peace
Friday, October 10, 2008
Ugh
Where have you been lately?
You've stopped replying.
Stopped calling.
Stop talking to me completely,
when it seemed like only a short while ago
we were having a great time;
I really do wish there was something you can tell me,
but really, what is there to say?
I know you're avoiding me,
and I know I've been so clingy and shit lately.
but what can I do?
You make me happy; You're not on my top for any old reason,
each person means a lot to me there, NO ORDER THOUGH.
each one of you are important and keys in my life, so I couldn't
possibly compare you to anyone else.
why don't you seem to care anymore?
is it school?
is it drama?
is it friends?
is it things from your past..?
I don't even really know.
But I told you I'd be here for you no matter what,
whether you want to accept the offer or not.
Get this straight.
I like you. A lot.
I wouldn't be wasting so much time
if you only realized how much I was seriously
trying to make this work; I'm trying to think this through,
I'm trying not to assume the worst.
But I always keep thinking that
theres someone else that might be out there
Thats taking you from me.
Why?
Am I not good enough?
Is it cause I'm too far away?
Why don't you realize that I'm trying even harder than ever now
because of such things?
Its like you don't even mean the things you've said to me before.
Just let me know you still think I exist.
-You know who you are.
You've stopped replying.
Stopped calling.
Stop talking to me completely,
when it seemed like only a short while ago
we were having a great time;
I really do wish there was something you can tell me,
but really, what is there to say?
I know you're avoiding me,
and I know I've been so clingy and shit lately.
but what can I do?
You make me happy; You're not on my top for any old reason,
each person means a lot to me there, NO ORDER THOUGH.
each one of you are important and keys in my life, so I couldn't
possibly compare you to anyone else.
why don't you seem to care anymore?
is it school?
is it drama?
is it friends?
is it things from your past..?
I don't even really know.
But I told you I'd be here for you no matter what,
whether you want to accept the offer or not.
Get this straight.
I like you. A lot.
I wouldn't be wasting so much time
if you only realized how much I was seriously
trying to make this work; I'm trying to think this through,
I'm trying not to assume the worst.
But I always keep thinking that
theres someone else that might be out there
Thats taking you from me.
Why?
Am I not good enough?
Is it cause I'm too far away?
Why don't you realize that I'm trying even harder than ever now
because of such things?
Its like you don't even mean the things you've said to me before.
Just let me know you still think I exist.
-You know who you are.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Pre SF + Bonfire
Today I'm gonna go out to SF for a bonfire my youth is hosting.
Anyone down? Go to Ocean Beach 3-10, it'll be fun.
For the most part though, I'm excited.
I need craazyy money though
because I was thinking about copping
something from THSF or HUF before we go there.
Oh well. Theres nothing much I can do other than that.
I've been posting a lot on ISS lately,
Still mad that Linda's with ____e,
but thats all good!
I need to talk to Christina.
and Jessica.
and you too.
Leaving at 2, hahaha
this is starting to sound more like
a myspace bulletin than a blog post,
peace
Anyone down? Go to Ocean Beach 3-10, it'll be fun.
For the most part though, I'm excited.
I need craazyy money though
because I was thinking about copping
something from THSF or HUF before we go there.
Oh well. Theres nothing much I can do other than that.
I've been posting a lot on ISS lately,
Still mad that Linda's with ____e,
but thats all good!
I need to talk to Christina.
and Jessica.
and you too.
Leaving at 2, hahaha
this is starting to sound more like
a myspace bulletin than a blog post,
peace
Thursday, October 2, 2008
So long
Another late blog entry,
I need to make a note to start posting a lot more often.
I've been talking about it for a while,
And I think that I'm going to save up to get a DSLR camera
to get started on picture-blogging as well,
because text all the time is just boringgggg.
I haven't posted here in a while, huh?
But it'll get better, I know it will.
Other than that,
school has been killer.
My grades SUCK right now,
really badly,
and the only grade that is looking even a little nice
for me right now is the class I least expected-
math.
Bhatnagar failed almost last year,
but I passed recovery on the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL,
dang.
But as long as I passed right?
They moved me back into geometry though. -_-
So here I am again. ANOTHER YEAR OF IT.
At least my teacher is someone I can understand
who can actually pay attention.
I don't like where I sit though, or the class
in general really. If the teacher is alright though
and I have a good grade in the class, I don't care about that then.
Sooo I hecka miss you know who.
We kind of got into some sort of in an argument,
and I regret blowing up on her.
My stomach hurts.
I need to make a note to start posting a lot more often.
I've been talking about it for a while,
And I think that I'm going to save up to get a DSLR camera
to get started on picture-blogging as well,
because text all the time is just boringgggg.
I haven't posted here in a while, huh?
But it'll get better, I know it will.
Other than that,
school has been killer.
My grades SUCK right now,
really badly,
and the only grade that is looking even a little nice
for me right now is the class I least expected-
math.
Bhatnagar failed almost last year,
but I passed recovery on the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL,
dang.
But as long as I passed right?
They moved me back into geometry though. -_-
So here I am again. ANOTHER YEAR OF IT.
At least my teacher is someone I can understand
who can actually pay attention.
I don't like where I sit though, or the class
in general really. If the teacher is alright though
and I have a good grade in the class, I don't care about that then.
Sooo I hecka miss you know who.
We kind of got into some sort of in an argument,
and I regret blowing up on her.
My stomach hurts.
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