Actually,

This month has been honestly
the worst month this year.
It feels like I've just been

through so much.
It really sucks!
I just wanted this month
to be a time for
my birthday,
a time for school,
a time for friends,
and a time for church.

I did get all of those, but I got the consequences of them too.

someone, who still shall be unnamed, started talking to me again today.
I was really happy she was able to talk to me,
oh how I thought she forgot me!
alas, we had to stop.
I took a shower,
cousins were over.

we played wii for a while,
then i went back to check ISS.

Got me some sb laces pending,
and I got 2 pairs of 511's from my mom today! Thank you mom.

I got $50 from my grandma, but I feel hella bad that I forgot to say thank you.
I really do want to start changing the way I am with my family,
but right now
that seems like the last thing I can do.

I feel like I've been losing friends,
and it also feels like I'm gaining stress.
So much school work and pressure on me.
Its starting to get so serious,
I want to do good.

If I can be honest,
I feel like eating. A lot.
A lot a lot.


I'm sick of this right now.
Being jealous
and
broke
and
having no friends is a real drag, eh?