Christmas Celebration

Today's Christmas festivities were pretty exciting from beginning to end.
I can say that I didn't want to receive any presents this year, because I got my parents and brother gifts, but I'm still kind of happy inside that I got a chance to open gifts.

As soon as I woke up, I was extremely busy.
I was stressed out from the beginning because Buddy told me she couldn't deliver my camera
to me. That was just one factor adding to my stress, not to mention that I still had to cook and wrap more presents. The guests were expected to arrive at around 5, and I slept in cause I was wrapping even MORE presents at like 3-4am. Boy, my family sure is spoiled this year.. LOL

I'm dead break now, but its worth it to see the look on their faces when they saw the stuff I got them.. I texted Janet saying that I needed to get a ride to Cupertino right away, but she said she'd be home at 7 which was way too late for me. If you guys were wondering why I haven't been posting as frequently as I used to, its also because I like having visuals to my entries, which make things more bearable and interesting for those who actually sit and read this stuff, haha.

In an act of desperation, I asked my dad if I can get a ride there, and luckily he was finished with enough cooking to drive me. My dad isn't usually the type to talk when driving[maybe cause he's focusing or idk] but he talked a lot to me today in the car, which was good. Sucks to know that some people have the hardest time talking to their parents rather than everyone else..

Got lost inside the apartments, went to like 4 different gyms/pool areas, until at the last second buddy finally calls me, and we exchange presents.. my gift for my camera, lols.
Came home, ate doughnut holes, downloaded Dungeon Fighter Online[IGN: Eidao/Eigen] for a few hours, came out when people were starting to arrive..
Ate roast beef, mashed potatos, macaroni salad, and corn, doesn't seem like much but that steak is THICK. Probably ate like 4lbs of beef on my own, lol..

Didn't open a lot of gifts this year because I wanted to give since I'm old enough to actually start getting stuff for people now, ya dig? I didn't want to wait for my parents to open them later, so I made them open my gifts now. I got my dad a limited edition Eddie Bauer tee and cashmere muffler, my mom a set of cashmere scarves and tons of bath & body work lotion/soaps, and my brother cotton gloves with some DS games inside of the mittens[Drawn To Life: Next Chapter, Mario & Luigi].

It feels better giving than receiving to be honest, cause that look on their face is something you can't beat, knowing that its something that they'll look great in/use a lot..

Hahaha, I'm too soft.

Heres some -overexposed- recap pics, taken by my uncle for the night:

Ja Ja Mel holding it down with that "Silent Night" acapella

Newest addition to the family..great, another little cousin lol..
Baby's first Christmas

Dad getting his new Clarks from me and my mom,
my brother holding it

Its ya boy thinkin, "Dang I should've bought a diffuser"
That flash is BRIGHT, mayne!

My mom opening one of her gifts, Victoria's Secret
I guess...gross lol

On a side note, I'm really glad someone decided to greet me merry christmas,
I didn't want anything today but for them to contact me again.

...Thanks a lot. You made christmas this year really what its meant to be: Something
thats to be shared with people you care about, whether its friends family and everything in between, its no good if you don't spend it with someone who means something to you.

Even if you weren't physically here, I still felt like you were by my side, even for just a little bit.
Praise God for being such a gracious giver to us all. He gave us all someone to spend togethertime with!

Don't forget about the true meaning of christmas guys, its not about the material things..
Its about together time, time you need to cherish cause you never know when the next time you'll be able to have something like that is [well, other than next christmas lol]. Who cares if theres not as many presents under the tree? That just means you have to put more thought into the present, and more time to be close..

More recap later on today, when I go to my dad's side of the family to celebrate..

be chill, happy holidays

My my my

What an uneventful day it has been, woke up at 2pm and ate, sat on the comp
all day, nothing really exciting happened today..

Recap:
-Wake up
-Eat breakfast
-Youtube all day
-Facebook/Myspace/ISS
-Limewired all of Trey Songz and Jay-Z's albums
-Learned how to play Reinventing Your Exit by underOATH on guitar
-Found out cheese popcorn + chocolate go amazing together
-Had to unclog toilet -__-

Overall, pretty boring day..
hopefully it picks up these next few days,

hopefully my christmas spirit doesn't die out early.

I miss you so much, you have no idea how bad it is to know you're gone.

be chill happy holidays

1 Month Hiatus + Recaps

YEE New pickups, dollar store ftw; I dont need those supreme beanies

New Nike ID's, you guys help me choose which colorway I should order first.
I'm leaning towards the 1st one to begin with! 1, 3, 2? or 1, 2, 3?

I'm back, like BACK BACK. I made promises that I would hop back on blogspot, but with being serious about sports and school, I hardly had time for this [even though I had time for ISS and eating like crazy..]. Now that its the Christmas/Holiday Break, I have time now to actually recap whats going on in my life again. Me being as forgetful as I am, this will be a good reminder for me.

TO SUMMARIZE THE PAST MONTH:
-Evangelism at SF [very uplifting]
-Got plantar fasciitis on my right foot[arch inflammed, got brace + missed 1 week of school]
-Got a new bed[sofa bed, folds out now! got more space in my room yee]
-Had a roller coaster GPA [3.6 => 2.9 => 4.1, by grading periods]
-Made new friends[yay]
-Gained 9 lbs [152, FAIL]
-Lost flat tummy [Gotta be honest, it shows in my clothes now =( ]
-Due to muscle tear/inflammation, had to stop P90X [Day 62, time to restart to day 1 FFFFFFFFFFfffff]
-Fell for someone, then got crushed. [Stupid mistakes I made.]
-Went Christmas shopping by myself for the first time [shopping for girls is really hard alone]
-Went to Valley Fair with the Sayabanha sisters for our teachers [Stephanie spent 50 alone on Mr.Hyde, our psychology teacher; she would]
-Made my 2010 Resolutions [hopefully i get em done]

This past month has been really hectic, filled with drama and fun, pain and healing, fat and skinny!

To help visually interpret my past month, heres some recap pics..

Practicing for street evangelism at SF, I didn't
wear my jacket at this time, I was dumb cold

@Thanksgiving dinner at my cousin's house,
My brother can't manual focus for crap

Black Friday shopping with mom @ gilroy..
Felt like NYC inside that place

Christmas Caroling, "Speak to Me"
very good song, y'all should listen to hear it
when I don't sing it :)
Start of the end..the bleeding was the first sign
that something was wrong with my foot, FAIL
On a plus note, my calves look muscular

Shopping for all my ladiessss is hard word by myself
Good thing the workers were really helpful,
shoutout to the employees at Old Navy, Gap, F21, and Papaya for help

Sago after a hard day of shopping makes me realize
I'm still pinoy at heart

This shows I can still be happy after taking 800mg Ibuprofen and have a 12lb brace around my leg

This goes to show that I'm not done with blogging, just been really busy; Hopefully this one big blog post is better than 6/7 tiny little ones. Later on today is our Christmas celebration at church, will recap that as best as I can without my camera [currently on loan to buddy Michelle Estolas], hopefully my cell phone pics are decent enough haha..

Funions are love, and they showed me that.

If only I can give someone that Funion kinda love.
be chill happy holidays

long day

long long day.

Today I feel very

Productive.
Cleaned the room, did my hw, updated everything..

..cept this.
Hang in there guys! I'll update EVERYTHING tomorrow. Promise.

happy 18th bea

details to be put here.

What a day

It has been.

Today

Was another good day..

Today

Was a good day.

Wednesday 11/4/09

Old pic, but whatevs.

People have been saying they like my blog, but they'd like to see more utilization of my "writing skills", whatever that means. Another friend said they'd like my friends to start being "deep" again like in my stuff over the summer. Oh boy, summer, how far away does that seem yet it was such a short time from now. Winters right around the corner, which means another year gone by. 2009, you have been one hell of a workout. Remember when everyone was saying "2007 was the best year ever"?

This decade is comprised of more than half my life, from 2000 till upcoming 2010, it's seen me transform from a little kid to a big kid...to a bigger kid.
Age is irrelevant to how mature a person is, and I believe that to the fullest cause I still have a lot more growing up to do despite having a lot more liberties[street legal, i can get a job, ect ect].

People who really know me understand that I'm a really soft person when I'm not around a lot of people, at that point I'm just a class clown. People who I've spoken to a lot realize that I have of things to say, a lot on my mind, the burdening thoughts in my heart and head that progressively build up over the day. Oh, how I wish there was just some place I could just let all these thoughts inside of me come out! Then, I found blogspot.

Blogspot, you da best.

fuck the haters. I know who I can rely on, and they can help me take care of those who go against me.

Happy..

1st of November, guys.
I can say this is my favorite month, the best of the fall and winter in one month.
Time of snuggling and warmth and togetherness, ahaha no homo.

WDYWT's from the past few days.

TO SUM MY PAST 3 DAYS UP:

This Halloween wasn't as great as I thought it would be, but it was definitely great for other things. I had to wake up around 10/11 and took a shower to get ready for the day. Me + the other youth were volunteering for a community Harvest Festival @ church, it was cool cause there was tons of games and food[well mostly chips/donuts/kool-aid lmao] and candy and stuff for everyone to enjoy. My favorite part was picking the prizes after I won a certain amount of mini-games, which were a bunch of stuffed animals..I got a cat and a black bear, they're dope. After we cleaned up the church and took out the trash, me Mark and Gurps went with Kuya Bryan to Jack in The Box with Ate Bhessie, Carla, and Pauline to eat.

After that was all done, we picked up Stephen then went to my house to get all my stuff to go to Kuya Bryan's apartment.. Dropped off Mark, then we all arrived at the house.

Played NBA 2k10 and MGS4 on the PS3, and when we all got hungry I busted out the pan to cook..

ZOMG, NEW HAIRCUT?

Got tired of the long hair, its good to have a change..new season coming up, new month, new cut. After we ate and all that, played more PS3 then all fell asleep around 3[technically 4].
Woke up early around 7/8 to play ball..when I just worked out in the gym. I didn't know I could max out on the leg press..ahaha, did ~30 sets of 20 at 250lbs, THUNDA THIGHZZZ jk.

After that, church then home.

Felt lonely cause nobody was hitting me up, but went on facebook to talk to Jamiejamjamjamz and Angelalalalaa. AIM'd Sonyayayaya and Stephanienienienie, and that was cool.

Sonyayayaya, thank you for the lovely evening!

Just to embarass ya. LOL

be chill

Wednesday 10/28/09

WDYWT.

Today was freaking windy again, our weather is the most bipolar thing I've seen in a long time. Hopefully it passes up soon. School was kind of slow today, I just want this month to end already!
Didn't really do much today, from what I remember from my day I slept in a lot of classes.
Art started carving my design in, will take pics of that later. Math did the hw for all my other classes, LOL.

Never mind, I'm getting too lazy to get all detailed about my day.
Just know that it was long + boring!

I guess you can say today was my overall lazy day, even in my blogging, smh.
My auntie went home to the PI today, after staying with us in our house for a few months,
It'll be different without having her around, I feel bad for mom more cause she just lost
her shopping buddy when my other aunties aren't free lulz.
Have a safe trip back Ninang Solee
It's freaking cold.

I want to sleep, but I have work to do still.
Will post later on today for Thursday's highlights..

be chill...stay warm tho

Monday 10/26/09

WDWYT.

Pajama day at school, peep the spongebob pillow in the back. Very comfy, sneak into my gym bag
so I can sleep on it in class. Today started off really bad, mom getting really moody and being
late to art class, but it started getting better. Math class was alright, nothing too special, just talked to my table groups the whole time lmao, sorry Mrs.Santos! I'll work harder I promise.
Break was kinda weird, it get all hot and cold randomly, didn't really do much.
Hermatz was a little worrisome for me, I didn't do my rough drafts..which remind me after this entry I gotta hop on those.

Traded with Huy, who didn't do his essay either.. LMAO s'all good.
But I know I can't keep doing that forever. Spanish was crackin, Ms. Landeza looked so funny today, LOL I know why you're one of my favorite teachers ever Ms. Landeza! [if you ever read this, extra credit..? LOL] Lunch was a little busy for me, dropped my backpack and other books off in Coach Hubbs' class so I don't have to carry it back with me when the bell rang. Spent the whole lunch reading chapter 17 of American Pageant: 11th Edition, oh fun. APUSH = stress in classroom form, he has those randomized notecard things with our names on it..and everytime he makes a student pick it out, the whole class gets dead quiet.. nervous. He takes out the ones who went so that just narrows down the scope, making it closer to me.. yikes. Better read ch.18 tonight!

Psych was fun. Funny skits and presentations were cool. Went home after that.

Spent the whole day eating and being lazy. Pho, Cinnabon, Iced Tea, Sprite.. you name it, I ate it today lmao. Gotta stop that also, cause track conditioning is starting up really fast like. P90x, or conditioning? Hmmm..depends, which one is gonna be harder for me.. LOL, tough call. I'll think of something.

Basically, my day was pretty average minus the pajamas, tomorrow is jersey day. WDYWT fit for tomorrow also.

Around 6 or 7PM,
I logged into MSN just for the heck of it. Didn't expect anyone to talk to

since I only have like 20 contacts in there. It's only my messenger for people who don't have AIM or a facebook/myspace to talk to me on. Jessica IMs me.
We had a great talk. It was so good to catch up with her, it feels like years since I spoke with her..
When she opened up her webcam for me, she looked sounded and acted more mature! I was surprised, really did feel like I've been gone a while, the only thing I saw from her the past 192399213 months being her text messages to me.

Basically, we talked about everything. Haha, the most randomest things in the world, you could not even imagine it..that, and more...both she and I were feeling a little down today, but seeing each other was a great way to close up the night. Who knows when the next time we're gonna really talk again like this is, but whenever that comes, I'll be ready for it most definitely.

As for you, Jessica.

be chill

Oh dear..

How have I neglected this place.
I think its time for another huge revamp..

new content, new outlining, everything.

Busy day tomorrow

PSATs and all that jazz tomorrow.
Wish me luck.
Will edit with recaps later.

Yikes

What a busy night...

No more.

No more failure, no more bs.
I'm sick and tired of disappointing the ones that truly mean something to me.
I will work hard and I WILL push my limits if I have to, in order to accomplish that.
It's time to be serious about what I do, and why I do it, what I'm trying to do with it.

My mindset was always shifting, and I put my priorities and obligations into things that didn't matter.

I'm deadlocked into this now.
I ain't gonna stop for nobody.

All I can do now is look forward, cause I finally decided to not look back anymore till after I know it's all been said and done and the race is finished.

I wish

I weren't so lonely all the time.

9/23/09

Tired and tired and tired..
Today was a good day today though.
Busted out the 1001s for the first time.
Not as bad as I thought it would be.
after school, played Combat Arms and waited till 3:30..
ran to yogurtland,

saw Art, didnt know he worked there.
metup for Wtaps.

thanks Steven.
Juiced for this epic trade I might be undergoing..My 3M fitteds, love em to death, but gonna trade them over for OG fitteds..thats all for today



be chill God bless

9/22/09

It was hot hot hot hottttttttttt today.

Week 2 of phase 1.

Day 1 of phase 1001.

be chill

Saturday Recap

Bonfire today. Left at around 2 to pick up Stephen and Lenlen to go to the church.
Drove with Kuya Bryan in the car with Stephen and Henry, freestyling the whole way to SF.
As we first got there to Ocean Beach, we were just starting to set up the blankets and volleyball net,
all of Pittsburgh/DBC came in. We played football, lost 3-5, cause they got college kids on their team, lol..

After the football game, it was time to begin the real reason why we all came.
The main goal today was to evangelize and try to spread the word out as much as possible.

It was already getting dark by the time we started..

The tracks we gave out.

In actuality, my group[Ivy, Lenlen, Ate Millie, Me, Krystle] split off, so I just went by myself with Krystle. :o) Altogether we had 12 tracks, so that meant at least 12 people would hear the word..All we had to do was introduce ourselves, offer a track, and walk off politely..

The first guy we saw was walking on the beach by himself, with a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of wine in another. Krystle made the first move "hi, we'd like to give you this track.."
and it just kicked off from there, 1 down. He was a believer also, so no really need for much except to pray for him. word.

The second group was a bunch of skater boys from the area took ours right away.

The third group was a bunch of guys with Sam Adams, Heinekens, Grey Goose, you name it, all on the beach..they had their fire pit going, and we just went up to them trying to be friendly, we all gave them each tracks, and it was apparently one of the dude's 18th birthday! Happy birthday Alex.

It was already dark when we were about halfway through..
We came up to this guy who was sitting by himself, Krystle offered him a track, he looks at it,
he hands it back to her, calling her a Protestant and a heretic, all that stuff..
It didn't phase us though. We just kept walking cause we knew what we needed to do..

Met some tall Russian dudes who came to Ocean Beach to swim at NIGHT,
They were believers, tight tight..Bayside/Bayview? church in Sacramento, if anyones from there. Hit em up.


We also gave a track to some indian lady who talked about Krystle's mole on her cheek and how if she was planning to become a businesswoman, she would have a very successful future.

The last group of guys were this gay couple, Eric and Tony. They came from Ohio, and they came here to Cali cause the minimum wage over there sucks, and cause they got like 12 roommates? Dang. Gave them tracks, nice guys, hope you guys are successful in w/e you do.

The fire was going, and me and Krystle were the last ones to come back.
The singing and all the fun was already cracking.
Soon after, Kuya Ricky interrupts.. "Is Jeff Bautista here?" and so I walk around the group,
come up to him. A guy from the third group, Angel, came up to our firepit. "You're more than welcome to join us," was an offer sent out to everyone, but he was the only one that came out.
He says he read the track and thought about it, and was asking us if there were more of them so he could give it to his WHOLE group.

Angel accepted that day, welcome to the fam.
I felt uplifted and happy, cause I know that despite being rejected and nobody taking us seriously, someone actually did and his life is gonna get turned around cause of that.
Bless you Angel Ochoa! I hope you and your other SF/Bay friends can hit us up sometime..

I think this is one of my longest posts ever, but its worth it.
If only you were there with me to imagine how amazing it felt.

i'm corny and cheesed out to the max, but w/e.
be chill God bless

Wed/Thurs 9/16-17

Basically..

School. P90X. ISS.
Composed most of my 2 days..well..
composes most of my everyday actually.

Lol, P90x Diet [nothing but protein]

Pickups, thanks Brian

be chill

9/15/09

Average day, nothing really big to talk about.
Had random thoughts going through my head all day.

School was aite, nothing special.
Only thing of interest was my application to go to Walden West as a Cabin Leader.
Haven't been there in 6 years, and boy those were the best years of my life back then.
A little chubby, but it didn't really matter to nobody back then..

Maybe it'll be different this time, lol..being in the other side of the campsite.
A lot of people[through my convincing skills lol] decided to sign up w/me on the week of October 5-10. Fun stuff, hopefully my parents will let me go..or it'll just be added onto the list of camps I couldn't go to..

Planned out my meetup for wtaps, hopefully gonna get them sometime next week, meetup at that new Pinkberry that opened up.

Still waiting on my new Flatheads, boy I'm excited..hopefully these ones fking fit me.
Tired of wearing cargos, lol. IDC if its, I'll wear those jawnz out till I bleed indigo!!1!!1one

Make a list of camera things I seriously want by the end of the year[impossible, but wtheck]:
-Sigma 50mm f/1.4
-Tamron 28-75mm f/2.8
-Nikkor 55-200mm f/4-5.6 VR
-Another SB-800
-Radio Popper Transmitter
-Radio Popper Receivers x3

My mom found an old mug of me and her and my dad, looks practically brand new..its been taken good care of for 14 years..."27 Feb, '95"
Makes me think back on a lotta things..

I'm sore as hell.

At least Annie + everyone else will now be able to share the struggle with me..lol..
be chill

woo

Today was a good day.
Woke up, ate some good breakfast,
came to class on time.
Art was chill, kinda sleepy but s'all good..
We're starting on "illuminated manuscripts",
and I got assigned to do the word "Festive"..how will I do that? You're just gonna have to find out.

-Ms.Santos class was aite, dude I feel hella dumb in that class, lmao..
I'm the only one w/o a book still, long lines ftl..
-AP Lit was crackin, haha I was in the fishbowl discussion w/some classmates
discussing about Jack London's "To Build a Fire". Crazy book, very sad.
-Spanish was fun, got to draw vocab words on a plastic sleeve to practice, ect ect;
-APUSH we learned about post Revolutionary war stuff, building a government better than England blahblah
-Psych was interesting, talked about our upcoming projects[mine will be a research on different groups of friends, and how each group needs a certain person, ect]

Enough about school.

WDYWT.

After school, dressed down to go out to eat at Sizzler's for my dad's 50th birthday, happy birthday dad!

After going home from Sizzlers, I realized how many overweight people were inside there, even looking at the tacos, the beef was dripping with orange-red oil..disgusting. Good thing all I had was shrimp and clam chowder, yumz!

Dropped my Ninang off at the rich houses all the way up in the Villages and stuff, waaayy up there, I could see all of San Jose from there! I even saw Highway 101, thats how high it was. Pics will be provided next time, sorry lol

I think the biggest thing I did today was start my REAL journey of P90X. I dogged it and didn't take it seriously and ended up quitting halfway through phase 1 cause I was so lazy. That won't be me anymore. I looked at myself in the mirror and said I wanted to make changes happen.
I want to feel and look great, be more confident, get in the best shape of my life, and hopefully motivate my family to take the same route as me.

It won't be easy, but for the next 89 more days, I'll be sweating like a dog in a heating vent, gasping for air and chugging down water like a drain pipe, but you know what? It'll be worth it..

Decided to go with P90X: Lean mode, cause Classic and Doubles are too much for me right now, and in the meantime I have to get prepared for track in the spring.

Watch over me guys, I'll make it..

till then, hw time;
God bless, be chill

Man.

It's only my 3rd day of being 16 and I feel like I've done a ton of growing up, on the real.
I've had tons of epiphanies over the last few days,
slowly realizing what I wanna be and why I wanna be it.

School is tough, but I gotta hang in there. Gotta get some serious work done if I
ever wanna be what I know I can be..

I found this video browsing on ISS called Chicken A Lacarte..

Birthday.

Haha, so I'm finally 16 right? Feels different, feels the same, maybe it doesn't feel like anything at all. Overall today I had a bunch of fun, all my classes were short but they were good. Didn't really get into much trouble and stuff, a good thing lmao; Shipped out my jeans + money order today, FINALLY I'll get a pair that can fit me.

Hopefully, I'll get them within this week and have a fit pic, they'll be my jeans for the year.
I was thinking that nobody was gonna really remember my birthday, but I was surprised
at how many people really did remember. Even people I didn't even talk to anymore remembered, so I'm grateful. Hahah, I guess people just remembered cause it was 999, ooo00h00h, lucky number.

Happy birthday to my Ate Kleen and twin sister, Janine.
WE'RE ALL GETTING OLDER, );

Thank you all who greeted me happy birthday, I feel definitely more mature and older since I turned 15 last year. I'm still a youngin, but now is the time to start being a lot more serious than I used to be. No more slack room. AP Courses will eat me alive if I don't keep up with them.

Oh yes. J is for Jeff.

We talked a lot tonight, didn't we? I'm glad we did! I feel closer to you despite what happened.

I hope you can understand I still want things to work out :3

be chill God bless

Pff

A lot of crazy stuff has been happening. Haven't had time to blog much. I'll get to it though!

School tomorrow

Fk. Those things would just not stretch. Oh well, trading them for a pair that fits me, heavier denim too. 16oz ftw.

I'm having mixed feelings about school tomorrow, but I'm sure it'll blow by like nothing.
I'll recap my last few days of summer tomorrow, along with the first day of school.
In the meantime, finishing ap hw

be chill

Minstrels.

Minstrels are people who usually perform songs to entertain people of higher status, such as kings or queens or a royal court. Other times, they are wandering musicians, who play for people who they cross paths with, in hopes to catch their attention and perhaps their hearts.

"and all these stupid silly songs
keep trying to catch your ear
i'm trying desperately
its just so hard to persevere
and even if you listened
i never had to much to say
cause its the same old song
i'm written for the day

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

all these minstrels through the ages
that is really all we are
simply singing for the girl
that makes us try so very hard
to craft the perfect limerick
to wield unending woe
to write such silly songs
and the different never know

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

and i'll hold on to the dream
of this beggar's plea and optimistic fantasy
just hold the hand and drop the knee
you're facing love
you're embracing melody

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl"

I shall continue to go wander, and maybe one day she'll come back and take me.

lulz be chill

Beach today.

YAY. FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS SUMMER, LOL

Someone - Musiq Soulchild

I never wanted a woman that wanted
Me for my name or material things
See I always hope for a woman that's so sure, emotionally secure
With spiritual faith
A woman that I can trust with all of my secrets
And even listen to all of my issues
A woman who never judge
Me or how I was
She deals with me strictly through love

[Chorus:]
Someone who will put up with the things
Loving me can bring
But still be there to see us through
Someone who would put up
With the strange and complicated things
Cause I would do the same for her too
Someone who I can be real with
Aint gotta be perfect
Because loving one another is all that matters
It's not hard to explain
So believe me when I say
That I found all of that in you

All that I hope for a friendship that's so pure
A girl I can talk to bout whatever is on my heart
A woman that needs me
That trust and believes me
That wont take my kindness as some kind of weakness
A woman who bares her soul who is willing to let go
That wants me to lead her but knows how to take control
And when I am feeling down
Cause things are going wrong
She fills me up and makes me feel strong

[Chorus:]

You are that someone who loves me
Through all my inperfections
You know my heart is filled with nothing but good intentions
You are the one that told me
Long as we got us
Nothing matters
You are the one that sees the joy through the pain
You are my light through the rain
Here and now
Girl I am saying
It's you
You're my heart
It's you
Your that someone I can truly say that I'll never find another love like you

[Repeat Chorus Til End]

Come home soon, Someone.

Its been a week

And no progress!
Didn't go to camp,
Didn't really do much,

all I've been doing is working out and sitting on my comp chair.
I did a few print jobs here and there.

I'm running out of things to blog!
Hopefully I can bring my camera + tripod to 613 tomorrow.
It's a good boost for me.

It helps me stay up when dq aint here.
I'm really full and I'm kinda sleep.

be chill

Gonna be busy..reading..

Wednesday

Is a strange day for me.
I feel very..strange.

Camp is in 2 days and I'm still not sure if I'm going.
To be honest, I'd rather go to camp and be withdrawn
from school than to be staying there and missing out on it.

The last thing I want to do is miss out on this opportunity.
I will try my hardest to go.

I HAVE to go.

Btw, I got my cam back.
So tomorrow's update will have pics in it! Yaay

be chill

4 day recap:

Friday: School, I was happy that our regular teacher ain't there, but instead we got a chill sub that didn't mind if we talked/slept all day. A good bonus for me. Went to youth hour, played some games, finally gave Erica her present! Went to Denny's afterwards, played some sugar packet table games. Bomb Friday, I knew this was the turnaround that I needed.

Saturday: Woke up early for the youth's car wash. It got pretty hot, good thing I brought my sunblock homie! Yeee, stayed at Stephen's house afterwards cause Kuya Dino had to go to work at 3-ish. Stayed there, took a nap, woke up, got dressed, got ready for Markeezy's 18th birthday dinner @ chili's. After we ate, we went to Nicole's house for devotion. It made me a step closer to finding myself....

Sunday: Church was fun. Ashley + Tita Christy came home today, had church...after church, changed into shorts cause it was hot and went to 6:13. Ate at In-n-out, played more table games..
except this time..I was on the losing side...a lot. I had to swallow 2 salt packets, 5 pepper packets, 2 packs of mustard, and a whole shot of ketchup. Gross. Came home around 10-11, but before that we went to go see a view near Bel Air and The Villages of a nighttime scape of San Jose. Beautiful. I want to take someone there someday!

Monday: Boring.

I hope the rest of the week goes well, and hopefully I can be able to get off and attend camp......
please pray that I do. Because it'll help me find who I am.

be chill

Cats.

You already know about my day.
Boringggg.
Hopefully its gonna be crackin' tomorrow,
since its Friday.

I don't got much to say, so heres a cat video.



be chill

Hell week, day 3

Today was a little better, but like the roller coaster of my life claims to be,
It went downhill also.

School was w/e. Same old, same old.
I just want these 10 days to pass quick.
Hopefully I can do all my ish early so I can still be able
to go to camp..

Which I really need right now.
Things are just getting really complicated,

I hope it'll straighten itself out this week.
Next week, will be a better week.
Thats all I'm hoping for.

Sorry for lack of pictures/exciting posts, lmao.
This week has been hectic.

So to make up for it, here.


Be chill