Just Jeff It

I'm back.

2010-06-10T22:43:00.001-07:00

Summers here.
Updates to come tomorrow.

Week recap

2010-03-10T02:09:00.000-08:00

Happy March!
Been too busy to update, but to recap my last week and a half:

-Grades improving
-Went to Youth Hour for the first time in months
-Getting letters from colleges interested in my enrollment
-Just trying to live life again!!
-Cleaned out my closet + room forreals
-Insanity

Some pics to sum it all up:

College letters..ignore my ISS tag lol

Retired my old 511's after a 1.3 years of nonstop wear..RIP my friend

Room cleaning before

Room cleaning after..

Pad thai ftw

Simple update, but theres more to come...

be chill

Mixed Feelings

2010-02-25T03:48:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty good day for the most part, I did all my hw for the day [for once].
Art, just working on sketches. Get to listen to iPods in the class so you can focus more and keep quiet..good idea by my art teacher. Used my old iPod shuffle, you know the clip on ones?
I had some classics in there..

Ginuwine - Differences
Common - The Light
Cartel - Say Anything Else

just a few to start with. I still listen to them now, but it was nice to know that my music taste didn't suck THAT much back then in 8th/9th grade.

Math class, did nothing..
AP Lit, went over tests, did horrible.. 28/45, but she curved it to 37 cause everyone did so bad. So I actually did pretty good in this case. Good stuff for failing.

Spanish, Senorita Landeza was talking about how a freshman in her class came into her class early one day and told her she was sad. When Senorita Landeza asked how come, she told the teacher that "The college I really want to go to..im worried that even if I do get all A's this year and do a bunch of clubs, there might be a chance its all for nothing cause its not gonna guarantee I got in." This makes a lot of sense.

The stereotype is that people with all A's or star atheletes will automatically be given a slot into the top universities. I know y'all who follow College Sports on ESPN know what schools I'm talking about.. Cal, Stanford, UCLA, USC, Harvard, Yale, Columbia, Syracuse, Villanova, Florida, Texas University, Oregon University, ect ect..it can go on forever.

Just having good grades doesn't cut it anymore. Thats why students now- take my advice. Although I'm only a junior, I'm taking it as serious as if I were a senior getting ready to leave.
Do as many extra curriculars as you can, but as a balancing act. Be competitive with your classes, take another year of a foreign language, get another elective in..anything to give you an edge.

Colleges that are more higher end will expect more of you, expecting you to be able to handle all the workloads and time constraints they give you. Its a fact of life that not everything is gonna be easy, and you're gonna be forced to work with people you don't like sometimes, it happens. Another tip: Be social. Being a closed-in nerd with all AP classes and SAT Scores that are perfect won't necessarily mean you can handle it alone in college. Ask for help, make friends, these are all things that will help you learn how to work with people.

This is what can result from your efforts. Through a lot of emailing and internships, I received an email from UC Davis, interested in what I had to offer them.

I received also similar letters from University of Oregon, San Diego State, SF Art Institute, and several private institutions [Faith Based.].

While I was enjoying this while it happened, I had to wake up and realize that they can still deny my enrollment should they see I stop improving, or start doing worse. So, that means I gotta push even harder. In a race, you start putting in everything you have and MORE when you see the finish line, rather than slow down. If you were to slow down cause you were nearing the finish line, people will start passing you up, and you might not succeed then.

Ms.Landeza has a very good point and I was glad she brought this up. It kept me thinking all day.

Lunch, more college talk..lmao, me and a few friends were arguing who the best schools in the Pac-10 and Big East were. coughvillanovauclacough

AP US History, just regular lecture. I'm studying for the test today as I speak.

Psychology, finished watching a movie called Memento. VERY trippy. Anyone who has seen Shutter Island and enjoyed it, this is up there. The director was an indie director, until this came out. It got so popular that he became a big time director for last summer's blockbuster: The Dark Knight.

As far as school goes, that was all that happened.
When I got home, tried out the fit test for Insanity.

...It was pretty hard. For only an 8 minute workout, it got my muscles hurting pretty badly.
The warmup on its own was enough to get my heartbeat up to 100bpm.
Each workout was only 1 minute long, but high reps and power, no rest break.
Hopefully P90X had trained me enough to get through all 60 days of this..

Latest pickup.
Before I go, everyone should try using Pandora Radio.
You type in an artist or song you really like, and only plays songs really similarly to it.
Its a great way to find new music, and stay focused cause you don't waste your time changing the songs you don't like to something better like I do.

All the songs I've gotten from it so far [underground heads you're welcome]

who am i - sound providers
morning of america - blue scholars
let go - braille
zen approach - dj krush
special - strange fruit project
flowin - jazz addixx
another day - living legends
say now - emc
time - hi-tek
who got it - inspectah deck
lovin' it - little brother
classic rock - giant panda
high john [instrumental] - mf doom
push on - surreal & the sound providers
my story [instrumental] - kero one
don't feel right - the roots
cali cruisin - strange fruit project
good fun - living legends
one chance - zion i
vinca rosea [instrumental] - mf doom
thank you - nujabes
these words - panacea
how to fish - dela
mr.nice guy - kenn starr
parachutes - strange fruit project
lately - felonious
out da club - people under the stairs
check the blueprints [instrumental] - kero one
voodoo child [dj premier remix] - dj cam
automaton - cyne
place to be - surreal & the sound providers
apsire - da ranjahz
acid raindrops - people under the stairs
crowd pleasa - el da sensei
elements of style - all natural
lost - cool calm pete
dope transmission - sound providers
push - common market
watch how it go down - termanology
it don't stop - j-live
fine and free - guru
you can't stop me now - rza
smoke & mirrors - rjd2
kick, push - lupe fiasco
space hoes - danger doom
next levels - king geedorah
step it up - supastition
hard times - doujah raze
logical - jeru the damaja
no future - 9th wonder & buckshot
people - common
re-fresh - common market
replay - visioneers

I'm tired. But I gotta study.
be chill

The Return.

2010-02-24T03:18:00.000-08:00

Its been a long 2 months, and 2010 has been crazy so far.
From the moment 2010 entered, it was filled with hectic work, stress, drama, and emotional troubles; not just for me, but for a lot of friends and family around me.
With that being said, you guys should understand why I haven't been posting [lol].

I'm back though, and I'm glad that I am.
I missed blogging haha..

January Basically:
-New Years
-School
-Finishing P90X Phase II

February Basically:
-No Valentine
-School
-Obtaining a copy of Insanity

I'll actually be starting Insanity next Monday [March 1], so I can end on May 1 as well.

I've been getting more serious about my pictures as well,
so if you guys aren't busy, take some time to look at my pictures at
http://www.flickr.com/photos/jeffiz

Theres a lot of stuff in there, and I'm just trying to get some view counts,
a few comments would be nice also. [/endadvertisement]

Not a major post, but just letting everyone know that I'm getting back into the
whole blogging scene.

...I hate tumblr. It stops people from being creative on their own,
cause they just take other people's words and pictures to describe themselves,
since they're too lazy to do it themselves anymore..

[/endrant].

Remember guys, if you're ever feeling down, never forget...

Be chill

Christmas Celebration

2009-12-25T00:28:00.000-08:00

Today's Christmas festivities were pretty exciting from beginning to end.
I can say that I didn't want to receive any presents this year, because I got my parents and brother gifts, but I'm still kind of happy inside that I got a chance to open gifts.

As soon as I woke up, I was extremely busy.
I was stressed out from the beginning because Buddy told me she couldn't deliver my camera
to me. That was just one factor adding to my stress, not to mention that I still had to cook and wrap more presents. The guests were expected to arrive at around 5, and I slept in cause I was wrapping even MORE presents at like 3-4am. Boy, my family sure is spoiled this year.. LOL

I'm dead break now, but its worth it to see the look on their faces when they saw the stuff I got them.. I texted Janet saying that I needed to get a ride to Cupertino right away, but she said she'd be home at 7 which was way too late for me. If you guys were wondering why I haven't been posting as frequently as I used to, its also because I like having visuals to my entries, which make things more bearable and interesting for those who actually sit and read this stuff, haha.

In an act of desperation, I asked my dad if I can get a ride there, and luckily he was finished with enough cooking to drive me. My dad isn't usually the type to talk when driving[maybe cause he's focusing or idk] but he talked a lot to me today in the car, which was good. Sucks to know that some people have the hardest time talking to their parents rather than everyone else..

Got lost inside the apartments, went to like 4 different gyms/pool areas, until at the last second buddy finally calls me, and we exchange presents.. my gift for my camera, lols.
Came home, ate doughnut holes, downloaded Dungeon Fighter Online[IGN: Eidao/Eigen] for a few hours, came out when people were starting to arrive..
Ate roast beef, mashed potatos, macaroni salad, and corn, doesn't seem like much but that steak is THICK. Probably ate like 4lbs of beef on my own, lol..

Didn't open a lot of gifts this year because I wanted to give since I'm old enough to actually start getting stuff for people now, ya dig? I didn't want to wait for my parents to open them later, so I made them open my gifts now. I got my dad a limited edition Eddie Bauer tee and cashmere muffler, my mom a set of cashmere scarves and tons of bath & body work lotion/soaps, and my brother cotton gloves with some DS games inside of the mittens[Drawn To Life: Next Chapter, Mario & Luigi].

It feels better giving than receiving to be honest, cause that look on their face is something you can't beat, knowing that its something that they'll look great in/use a lot..

Hahaha, I'm too soft.

Heres some -overexposed- recap pics, taken by my uncle for the night:

Ja Ja Mel holding it down with that "Silent Night" acapella

Newest addition to the family..great, another little cousin lol..
Baby's first Christmas

Dad getting his new Clarks from me and my mom,
my brother holding it

Its ya boy thinkin, "Dang I should've bought a diffuser"
That flash is BRIGHT, mayne!

My mom opening one of her gifts, Victoria's Secret
I guess...gross lol

On a side note, I'm really glad someone decided to greet me merry christmas,
I didn't want anything today but for them to contact me again.

...Thanks a lot. You made christmas this year really what its meant to be: Something
thats to be shared with people you care about, whether its friends family and everything in between, its no good if you don't spend it with someone who means something to you.

Even if you weren't physically here, I still felt like you were by my side, even for just a little bit.
Praise God for being such a gracious giver to us all. He gave us all someone to spend togethertime with!

Don't forget about the true meaning of christmas guys, its not about the material things..
Its about together time, time you need to cherish cause you never know when the next time you'll be able to have something like that is [well, other than next christmas lol]. Who cares if theres not as many presents under the tree? That just means you have to put more thought into the present, and more time to be close..

More recap later on today, when I go to my dad's side of the family to celebrate..

be chill, happy holidays

My my my

2009-12-22T01:43:00.000-08:00

What an uneventful day it has been, woke up at 2pm and ate, sat on the comp
all day, nothing really exciting happened today..

Recap:
-Wake up
-Eat breakfast
-Youtube all day
-Facebook/Myspace/ISS
-Limewired all of Trey Songz and Jay-Z's albums
-Learned how to play Reinventing Your Exit by underOATH on guitar
-Found out cheese popcorn + chocolate go amazing together
-Had to unclog toilet -__-

Overall, pretty boring day..
hopefully it picks up these next few days,

hopefully my christmas spirit doesn't die out early.

I miss you so much, you have no idea how bad it is to know you're gone.

be chill happy holidays

1 Month Hiatus + Recaps

2009-12-20T01:15:00.000-08:00

YEE New pickups, dollar store ftw; I dont need those supreme beanies

New Nike ID's, you guys help me choose which colorway I should order first.
I'm leaning towards the 1st one to begin with! 1, 3, 2? or 1, 2, 3?

I'm back, like BACK BACK. I made promises that I would hop back on blogspot, but with being serious about sports and school, I hardly had time for this [even though I had time for ISS and eating like crazy..]. Now that its the Christmas/Holiday Break, I have time now to actually recap whats going on in my life again. Me being as forgetful as I am, this will be a good reminder for me.

TO SUMMARIZE THE PAST MONTH:
-Evangelism at SF [very uplifting]
-Got plantar fasciitis on my right foot[arch inflammed, got brace + missed 1 week of school]
-Got a new bed[sofa bed, folds out now! got more space in my room yee]
-Had a roller coaster GPA [3.6 => 2.9 => 4.1, by grading periods]
-Made new friends[yay]
-Gained 9 lbs [152, FAIL]
-Lost flat tummy [Gotta be honest, it shows in my clothes now =( ]
-Due to muscle tear/inflammation, had to stop P90X [Day 62, time to restart to day 1 FFFFFFFFFFfffff]
-Fell for someone, then got crushed. [Stupid mistakes I made.]
-Went Christmas shopping by myself for the first time [shopping for girls is really hard alone]
-Went to Valley Fair with the Sayabanha sisters for our teachers [Stephanie spent 50 alone on Mr.Hyde, our psychology teacher; she would]
-Made my 2010 Resolutions [hopefully i get em done]

This past month has been really hectic, filled with drama and fun, pain and healing, fat and skinny!

To help visually interpret my past month, heres some recap pics..

Practicing for street evangelism at SF, I didn't
wear my jacket at this time, I was dumb cold

@Thanksgiving dinner at my cousin's house,
My brother can't manual focus for crap

Black Friday shopping with mom @ gilroy..
Felt like NYC inside that place

Christmas Caroling, "Speak to Me"
very good song, y'all should listen to hear it
when I don't sing it :)
Start of the end..the bleeding was the first sign
that something was wrong with my foot, FAIL
On a plus note, my calves look muscular

Shopping for all my ladiessss is hard word by myself
Good thing the workers were really helpful,
shoutout to the employees at Old Navy, Gap, F21, and Papaya for help

Sago after a hard day of shopping makes me realize
I'm still pinoy at heart

This shows I can still be happy after taking 800mg Ibuprofen and have a 12lb brace around my leg

This goes to show that I'm not done with blogging, just been really busy; Hopefully this one big blog post is better than 6/7 tiny little ones. Later on today is our Christmas celebration at church, will recap that as best as I can without my camera [currently on loan to buddy Michelle Estolas], hopefully my cell phone pics are decent enough haha..

Funions are love, and they showed me that.

If only I can give someone that Funion kinda love.
be chill happy holidays

long day

2009-11-21T23:30:00.001-08:00

long long day.

Today I feel very

2009-11-16T23:34:00.000-08:00

Productive.
Cleaned the room, did my hw, updated everything..

..cept this.
Hang in there guys! I'll update EVERYTHING tomorrow. Promise.

happy 18th bea

2009-11-14T23:34:00.001-08:00

details to be put here.

What a day

2009-11-11T23:57:00.001-08:00

It has been.

Today

2009-11-09T23:58:00.001-08:00

Was another good day..

Today

2009-11-08T23:57:00.001-08:00

Was a good day.

Wednesday 11/4/09

2009-11-04T23:29:00.000-08:00

Old pic, but whatevs.

People have been saying they like my blog, but they'd like to see more utilization of my "writing skills", whatever that means. Another friend said they'd like my friends to start being "deep" again like in my stuff over the summer. Oh boy, summer, how far away does that seem yet it was such a short time from now. Winters right around the corner, which means another year gone by. 2009, you have been one hell of a workout. Remember when everyone was saying "2007 was the best year ever"?

This decade is comprised of more than half my life, from 2000 till upcoming 2010, it's seen me transform from a little kid to a big kid...to a bigger kid.
Age is irrelevant to how mature a person is, and I believe that to the fullest cause I still have a lot more growing up to do despite having a lot more liberties[street legal, i can get a job, ect ect].

People who really know me understand that I'm a really soft person when I'm not around a lot of people, at that point I'm just a class clown. People who I've spoken to a lot realize that I have of things to say, a lot on my mind, the burdening thoughts in my heart and head that progressively build up over the day. Oh, how I wish there was just some place I could just let all these thoughts inside of me come out! Then, I found blogspot.

Blogspot, you da best.

fuck the haters. I know who I can rely on, and they can help me take care of those who go against me.

Happy..

2009-11-01T23:12:00.001-08:00

1st of November, guys.
I can say this is my favorite month, the best of the fall and winter in one month.
Time of snuggling and warmth and togetherness, ahaha no homo.

WDYWT's from the past few days.

TO SUM MY PAST 3 DAYS UP:

This Halloween wasn't as great as I thought it would be, but it was definitely great for other things. I had to wake up around 10/11 and took a shower to get ready for the day. Me + the other youth were volunteering for a community Harvest Festival @ church, it was cool cause there was tons of games and food[well mostly chips/donuts/kool-aid lmao] and candy and stuff for everyone to enjoy. My favorite part was picking the prizes after I won a certain amount of mini-games, which were a bunch of stuffed animals..I got a cat and a black bear, they're dope. After we cleaned up the church and took out the trash, me Mark and Gurps went with Kuya Bryan to Jack in The Box with Ate Bhessie, Carla, and Pauline to eat.

After that was all done, we picked up Stephen then went to my house to get all my stuff to go to Kuya Bryan's apartment.. Dropped off Mark, then we all arrived at the house.

Played NBA 2k10 and MGS4 on the PS3, and when we all got hungry I busted out the pan to cook..

ZOMG, NEW HAIRCUT?

Got tired of the long hair, its good to have a change..new season coming up, new month, new cut. After we ate and all that, played more PS3 then all fell asleep around 3[technically 4].
Woke up early around 7/8 to play ball..when I just worked out in the gym. I didn't know I could max out on the leg press..ahaha, did ~30 sets of 20 at 250lbs, THUNDA THIGHZZZ jk.

After that, church then home.

Felt lonely cause nobody was hitting me up, but went on facebook to talk to Jamiejamjamjamz and Angelalalalaa. AIM'd Sonyayayaya and Stephanienienienie, and that was cool.

Sonyayayaya, thank you for the lovely evening!

Just to embarass ya. LOL

be chill

Wednesday 10/28/09

2009-10-29T00:11:00.001-07:00

WDYWT.

Today was freaking windy again, our weather is the most bipolar thing I've seen in a long time. Hopefully it passes up soon. School was kind of slow today, I just want this month to end already!
Didn't really do much today, from what I remember from my day I slept in a lot of classes.
Art started carving my design in, will take pics of that later. Math did the hw for all my other classes, LOL.

Never mind, I'm getting too lazy to get all detailed about my day.
Just know that it was long + boring!

I guess you can say today was my overall lazy day, even in my blogging, smh.
My auntie went home to the PI today, after staying with us in our house for a few months,
It'll be different without having her around, I feel bad for mom more cause she just lost
her shopping buddy when my other aunties aren't free lulz.
Have a safe trip back Ninang Solee
It's freaking cold.

I want to sleep, but I have work to do still.
Will post later on today for Thursday's highlights..

be chill...stay warm tho

Monday 10/26/09

2009-10-26T23:16:00.001-07:00

WDWYT.

Pajama day at school, peep the spongebob pillow in the back. Very comfy, sneak into my gym bag
so I can sleep on it in class. Today started off really bad, mom getting really moody and being
late to art class, but it started getting better. Math class was alright, nothing too special, just talked to my table groups the whole time lmao, sorry Mrs.Santos! I'll work harder I promise.
Break was kinda weird, it get all hot and cold randomly, didn't really do much.
Hermatz was a little worrisome for me, I didn't do my rough drafts..which remind me after this entry I gotta hop on those.

Traded with Huy, who didn't do his essay either.. LMAO s'all good.
But I know I can't keep doing that forever. Spanish was crackin, Ms. Landeza looked so funny today, LOL I know why you're one of my favorite teachers ever Ms. Landeza! [if you ever read this, extra credit..? LOL] Lunch was a little busy for me, dropped my backpack and other books off in Coach Hubbs' class so I don't have to carry it back with me when the bell rang. Spent the whole lunch reading chapter 17 of American Pageant: 11th Edition, oh fun. APUSH = stress in classroom form, he has those randomized notecard things with our names on it..and everytime he makes a student pick it out, the whole class gets dead quiet.. nervous. He takes out the ones who went so that just narrows down the scope, making it closer to me.. yikes. Better read ch.18 tonight!

Psych was fun. Funny skits and presentations were cool. Went home after that.

Spent the whole day eating and being lazy. Pho, Cinnabon, Iced Tea, Sprite.. you name it, I ate it today lmao. Gotta stop that also, cause track conditioning is starting up really fast like. P90x, or conditioning? Hmmm..depends, which one is gonna be harder for me.. LOL, tough call. I'll think of something.

Basically, my day was pretty average minus the pajamas, tomorrow is jersey day. WDYWT fit for tomorrow also.

Around 6 or 7PM,
I logged into MSN just for the heck of it. Didn't expect anyone to talk to

since I only have like 20 contacts in there. It's only my messenger for people who don't have AIM or a facebook/myspace to talk to me on. Jessica IMs me.
We had a great talk. It was so good to catch up with her, it feels like years since I spoke with her..
When she opened up her webcam for me, she looked sounded and acted more mature! I was surprised, really did feel like I've been gone a while, the only thing I saw from her the past 192399213 months being her text messages to me.

Basically, we talked about everything. Haha, the most randomest things in the world, you could not even imagine it..that, and more...both she and I were feeling a little down today, but seeing each other was a great way to close up the night. Who knows when the next time we're gonna really talk again like this is, but whenever that comes, I'll be ready for it most definitely.

As for you, Jessica.

be chill

Oh dear..

2009-10-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

How have I neglected this place.
I think its time for another huge revamp..

new content, new outlining, everything.

Busy day tomorrow

2009-10-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

PSATs and all that jazz tomorrow.
Wish me luck.
Will edit with recaps later.

Yikes

2009-10-04T23:53:00.000-07:00

What a busy night...

No more.

2009-10-02T03:18:00.001-07:00

No more failure, no more bs.
I'm sick and tired of disappointing the ones that truly mean something to me.
I will work hard and I WILL push my limits if I have to, in order to accomplish that.
It's time to be serious about what I do, and why I do it, what I'm trying to do with it.

My mindset was always shifting, and I put my priorities and obligations into things that didn't matter.

I'm deadlocked into this now.
I ain't gonna stop for nobody.

All I can do now is look forward, cause I finally decided to not look back anymore till after I know it's all been said and done and the race is finished.

I wish

2009-09-27T23:56:00.000-07:00

I weren't so lonely all the time.

9/23/09

2009-09-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

Tired and tired and tired..
Today was a good day today though.
Busted out the 1001s for the first time.
Not as bad as I thought it would be.
after school, played Combat Arms and waited till 3:30..
ran to yogurtland,

saw Art, didnt know he worked there.
metup for Wtaps.

thanks Steven.
Juiced for this epic trade I might be undergoing..My 3M fitteds, love em to death, but gonna trade them over for OG fitteds..thats all for today

be chill God bless

9/22/09

2009-09-22T23:39:00.000-07:00

It was hot hot hot hottttttttttt today.

Week 2 of phase 1.

Day 1 of phase 1001.

be chill

Saturday Recap

2009-09-20T23:57:00.000-07:00

Bonfire today. Left at around 2 to pick up Stephen and Lenlen to go to the church.
Drove with Kuya Bryan in the car with Stephen and Henry, freestyling the whole way to SF.
As we first got there to Ocean Beach, we were just starting to set up the blankets and volleyball net,
all of Pittsburgh/DBC came in. We played football, lost 3-5, cause they got college kids on their team, lol..

After the football game, it was time to begin the real reason why we all came.
The main goal today was to evangelize and try to spread the word out as much as possible.

It was already getting dark by the time we started..

The tracks we gave out.

In actuality, my group[Ivy, Lenlen, Ate Millie, Me, Krystle] split off, so I just went by myself with Krystle. :o) Altogether we had 12 tracks, so that meant at least 12 people would hear the word..All we had to do was introduce ourselves, offer a track, and walk off politely..

The first guy we saw was walking on the beach by himself, with a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of wine in another. Krystle made the first move "hi, we'd like to give you this track.."
and it just kicked off from there, 1 down. He was a believer also, so no really need for much except to pray for him. word.

The second group was a bunch of skater boys from the area took ours right away.

The third group was a bunch of guys with Sam Adams, Heinekens, Grey Goose, you name it, all on the beach..they had their fire pit going, and we just went up to them trying to be friendly, we all gave them each tracks, and it was apparently one of the dude's 18th birthday! Happy birthday Alex.

It was already dark when we were about halfway through..
We came up to this guy who was sitting by himself, Krystle offered him a track, he looks at it,
he hands it back to her, calling her a Protestant and a heretic, all that stuff..
It didn't phase us though. We just kept walking cause we knew what we needed to do..

Met some tall Russian dudes who came to Ocean Beach to swim at NIGHT,
They were believers, tight tight..Bayside/Bayview? church in Sacramento, if anyones from there. Hit em up.

We also gave a track to some indian lady who talked about Krystle's mole on her cheek and how if she was planning to become a businesswoman, she would have a very successful future.

The last group of guys were this gay couple, Eric and Tony. They came from Ohio, and they came here to Cali cause the minimum wage over there sucks, and cause they got like 12 roommates? Dang. Gave them tracks, nice guys, hope you guys are successful in w/e you do.

The fire was going, and me and Krystle were the last ones to come back.
The singing and all the fun was already cracking.
Soon after, Kuya Ricky interrupts.. "Is Jeff Bautista here?" and so I walk around the group,
come up to him. A guy from the third group, Angel, came up to our firepit. "You're more than welcome to join us," was an offer sent out to everyone, but he was the only one that came out.
He says he read the track and thought about it, and was asking us if there were more of them so he could give it to his WHOLE group.

Angel accepted that day, welcome to the fam.
I felt uplifted and happy, cause I know that despite being rejected and nobody taking us seriously, someone actually did and his life is gonna get turned around cause of that.
Bless you Angel Ochoa! I hope you and your other SF/Bay friends can hit us up sometime..

I think this is one of my longest posts ever, but its worth it.
If only you were there with me to imagine how amazing it felt.

i'm corny and cheesed out to the max, but w/e.
be chill God bless

Wed/Thurs 9/16-17

2009-09-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

Basically..

School. P90X. ISS.
Composed most of my 2 days..well..
composes most of my everyday actually.

Lol, P90x Diet [nothing but protein]

Pickups, thanks Brian

be chill

9/15/09

2009-09-15T23:25:00.001-07:00

Average day, nothing really big to talk about.
Had random thoughts going through my head all day.

School was aite, nothing special.
Only thing of interest was my application to go to Walden West as a Cabin Leader.
Haven't been there in 6 years, and boy those were the best years of my life back then.
A little chubby, but it didn't really matter to nobody back then..

Maybe it'll be different this time, lol..being in the other side of the campsite.
A lot of people[through my convincing skills lol] decided to sign up w/me on the week of October 5-10. Fun stuff, hopefully my parents will let me go..or it'll just be added onto the list of camps I couldn't go to..

Planned out my meetup for wtaps, hopefully gonna get them sometime next week, meetup at that new Pinkberry that opened up.

Still waiting on my new Flatheads, boy I'm excited..hopefully these ones fking fit me.
Tired of wearing cargos, lol. IDC if its, I'll wear those jawnz out till I bleed indigo!!1!!1one

Make a list of camera things I seriously want by the end of the year[impossible, but wtheck]:
-Sigma 50mm f/1.4
-Tamron 28-75mm f/2.8
-Nikkor 55-200mm f/4-5.6 VR
-Another SB-800
-Radio Popper Transmitter
-Radio Popper Receivers x3

My mom found an old mug of me and her and my dad, looks practically brand new..its been taken good care of for 14 years..."27 Feb, '95"
Makes me think back on a lotta things..

I'm sore as hell.

At least Annie + everyone else will now be able to share the struggle with me..lol..
be chill

woo

2009-09-14T00:00:00.001-07:00

Today was a good day.
Woke up, ate some good breakfast,
came to class on time.
Art was chill, kinda sleepy but s'all good..
We're starting on "illuminated manuscripts",
and I got assigned to do the word "Festive"..how will I do that? You're just gonna have to find out.

-Ms.Santos class was aite, dude I feel hella dumb in that class, lmao..
I'm the only one w/o a book still, long lines ftl..
-AP Lit was crackin, haha I was in the fishbowl discussion w/some classmates
discussing about Jack London's "To Build a Fire". Crazy book, very sad.
-Spanish was fun, got to draw vocab words on a plastic sleeve to practice, ect ect;
-APUSH we learned about post Revolutionary war stuff, building a government better than England blahblah
-Psych was interesting, talked about our upcoming projects[mine will be a research on different groups of friends, and how each group needs a certain person, ect]

Enough about school.

WDYWT.

After school, dressed down to go out to eat at Sizzler's for my dad's 50th birthday, happy birthday dad!

After going home from Sizzlers, I realized how many overweight people were inside there, even looking at the tacos, the beef was dripping with orange-red oil..disgusting. Good thing all I had was shrimp and clam chowder, yumz!

Dropped my Ninang off at the rich houses all the way up in the Villages and stuff, waaayy up there, I could see all of San Jose from there! I even saw Highway 101, thats how high it was. Pics will be provided next time, sorry lol

I think the biggest thing I did today was start my REAL journey of P90X. I dogged it and didn't take it seriously and ended up quitting halfway through phase 1 cause I was so lazy. That won't be me anymore. I looked at myself in the mirror and said I wanted to make changes happen.
I want to feel and look great, be more confident, get in the best shape of my life, and hopefully motivate my family to take the same route as me.

It won't be easy, but for the next 89 more days, I'll be sweating like a dog in a heating vent, gasping for air and chugging down water like a drain pipe, but you know what? It'll be worth it..

Decided to go with P90X: Lean mode, cause Classic and Doubles are too much for me right now, and in the meantime I have to get prepared for track in the spring.

Watch over me guys, I'll make it..

till then, hw time;
God bless, be chill

Man.

2009-09-12T23:50:00.000-07:00

It's only my 3rd day of being 16 and I feel like I've done a ton of growing up, on the real.
I've had tons of epiphanies over the last few days,
slowly realizing what I wanna be and why I wanna be it.

School is tough, but I gotta hang in there. Gotta get some serious work done if I
ever wanna be what I know I can be..

I found this video browsing on ISS called Chicken A Lacarte..

Birthday.

2009-09-10T01:18:00.000-07:00

Haha, so I'm finally 16 right? Feels different, feels the same, maybe it doesn't feel like anything at all. Overall today I had a bunch of fun, all my classes were short but they were good. Didn't really get into much trouble and stuff, a good thing lmao; Shipped out my jeans + money order today, FINALLY I'll get a pair that can fit me.

Hopefully, I'll get them within this week and have a fit pic, they'll be my jeans for the year.
I was thinking that nobody was gonna really remember my birthday, but I was surprised
at how many people really did remember. Even people I didn't even talk to anymore remembered, so I'm grateful. Hahah, I guess people just remembered cause it was 999, ooo00h00h, lucky number.

Happy birthday to my Ate Kleen and twin sister, Janine.
WE'RE ALL GETTING OLDER, );

Thank you all who greeted me happy birthday, I feel definitely more mature and older since I turned 15 last year. I'm still a youngin, but now is the time to start being a lot more serious than I used to be. No more slack room. AP Courses will eat me alive if I don't keep up with them.

Oh yes. J is for Jeff.

We talked a lot tonight, didn't we? I'm glad we did! I feel closer to you despite what happened.

I hope you can understand I still want things to work out :3

be chill God bless

Pff

2009-08-31T02:32:00.001-07:00

A lot of crazy stuff has been happening. Haven't had time to blog much. I'll get to it though!

School tomorrow

2009-08-24T23:24:00.001-07:00

Fk. Those things would just not stretch. Oh well, trading them for a pair that fits me, heavier denim too. 16oz ftw.

I'm having mixed feelings about school tomorrow, but I'm sure it'll blow by like nothing.
I'll recap my last few days of summer tomorrow, along with the first day of school.
In the meantime, finishing ap hw

be chill

Minstrels.

2009-08-22T02:17:00.000-07:00

Minstrels are people who usually perform songs to entertain people of higher status, such as kings or queens or a royal court. Other times, they are wandering musicians, who play for people who they cross paths with, in hopes to catch their attention and perhaps their hearts.

"and all these stupid silly songs
keep trying to catch your ear
i'm trying desperately
its just so hard to persevere
and even if you listened
i never had to much to say
cause its the same old song
i'm written for the day

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

all these minstrels through the ages
that is really all we are
simply singing for the girl
that makes us try so very hard
to craft the perfect limerick
to wield unending woe
to write such silly songs
and the different never know

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

and i'll hold on to the dream
of this beggar's plea and optimistic fantasy
just hold the hand and drop the knee
you're facing love
you're embracing melody

shelter me oh genius words
just give me strength
just to pen these things
and give me peace to well her wings
and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl

and oh carry on all you minstrels of the world
we will catch our ladies ear
we will win for us the girl"

I shall continue to go wander, and maybe one day she'll come back and take me.

lulz be chill

Beach today.

2009-08-07T01:22:00.001-07:00

YAY. FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS SUMMER, LOL

Someone - Musiq Soulchild

2009-08-06T04:00:00.000-07:00

I never wanted a woman that wanted
Me for my name or material things
See I always hope for a woman that's so sure, emotionally secure
With spiritual faith
A woman that I can trust with all of my secrets
And even listen to all of my issues
A woman who never judge
Me or how I was
She deals with me strictly through love

[Chorus:]
Someone who will put up with the things
Loving me can bring
But still be there to see us through
Someone who would put up
With the strange and complicated things
Cause I would do the same for her too
Someone who I can be real with
Aint gotta be perfect
Because loving one another is all that matters
It's not hard to explain
So believe me when I say
That I found all of that in you

All that I hope for a friendship that's so pure
A girl I can talk to bout whatever is on my heart
A woman that needs me
That trust and believes me
That wont take my kindness as some kind of weakness
A woman who bares her soul who is willing to let go
That wants me to lead her but knows how to take control
And when I am feeling down
Cause things are going wrong
She fills me up and makes me feel strong

[Chorus:]

You are that someone who loves me
Through all my inperfections
You know my heart is filled with nothing but good intentions
You are the one that told me
Long as we got us
Nothing matters
You are the one that sees the joy through the pain
You are my light through the rain
Here and now
Girl I am saying
It's you
You're my heart
It's you
Your that someone I can truly say that I'll never find another love like you

[Repeat Chorus Til End]

Come home soon, Someone.

Its been a week

2009-08-02T00:53:00.001-07:00

And no progress!
Didn't go to camp,
Didn't really do much,

all I've been doing is working out and sitting on my comp chair.
I did a few print jobs here and there.

I'm running out of things to blog!
Hopefully I can bring my camera + tripod to 613 tomorrow.
It's a good boost for me.

It helps me stay up when dq aint here.
I'm really full and I'm kinda sleep.

be chill

Gonna be busy..reading..

2009-07-23T16:59:00.001-07:00

Wednesday

2009-07-22T23:19:00.001-07:00

Is a strange day for me.
I feel very..strange.

Camp is in 2 days and I'm still not sure if I'm going.
To be honest, I'd rather go to camp and be withdrawn
from school than to be staying there and missing out on it.

The last thing I want to do is miss out on this opportunity.
I will try my hardest to go.

I HAVE to go.

Btw, I got my cam back.
So tomorrow's update will have pics in it! Yaay

be chill

4 day recap:

2009-07-20T22:40:00.000-07:00

Friday: School, I was happy that our regular teacher ain't there, but instead we got a chill sub that didn't mind if we talked/slept all day. A good bonus for me. Went to youth hour, played some games, finally gave Erica her present! Went to Denny's afterwards, played some sugar packet table games. Bomb Friday, I knew this was the turnaround that I needed.

Saturday: Woke up early for the youth's car wash. It got pretty hot, good thing I brought my sunblock homie! Yeee, stayed at Stephen's house afterwards cause Kuya Dino had to go to work at 3-ish. Stayed there, took a nap, woke up, got dressed, got ready for Markeezy's 18th birthday dinner @ chili's. After we ate, we went to Nicole's house for devotion. It made me a step closer to finding myself....

Sunday: Church was fun. Ashley + Tita Christy came home today, had church...after church, changed into shorts cause it was hot and went to 6:13. Ate at In-n-out, played more table games..
except this time..I was on the losing side...a lot. I had to swallow 2 salt packets, 5 pepper packets, 2 packs of mustard, and a whole shot of ketchup. Gross. Came home around 10-11, but before that we went to go see a view near Bel Air and The Villages of a nighttime scape of San Jose. Beautiful. I want to take someone there someday!

Monday: Boring.

I hope the rest of the week goes well, and hopefully I can be able to get off and attend camp......
please pray that I do. Because it'll help me find who I am.

be chill

Cats.

2009-07-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

You already know about my day.
Boringggg.
Hopefully its gonna be crackin' tomorrow,
since its Friday.

I don't got much to say, so heres a cat video.

be chill

Hell week, day 3

2009-07-15T23:34:00.001-07:00

Today was a little better, but like the roller coaster of my life claims to be,
It went downhill also.

School was w/e. Same old, same old.
I just want these 10 days to pass quick.
Hopefully I can do all my ish early so I can still be able
to go to camp..

Which I really need right now.
Things are just getting really complicated,

I hope it'll straighten itself out this week.
Next week, will be a better week.
Thats all I'm hoping for.

Sorry for lack of pictures/exciting posts, lmao.
This week has been hectic.

So to make up for it, here.

Be chill

Tuesday

2009-07-14T23:39:00.000-07:00

Is not much better.

I'm so tired of this class already..

After school,
Got some subways,
found out another one of my little baby cousins pass away..
Both Gianni and Gabrielle are gone, both my little girls.

Praying that the boys pull through.
Going down to LA this Saturday to come visit my Uncle and Auntie.

Hoping this week isn't all bad..
gotta stay up.

be chill

Monday 7/13/09

2009-07-13T22:38:00.000-07:00

Boring day today.
It was a draaaaaaggg,
I woke up at 9[planned to sleep in all day]
but mom woke me up.

Said I have summer school. WTFZ?!
Apparently, SC called at the last minute
and so I'm forced to go back to the nightmare that was
Geometry for me in the 9th grade.

I did decent to slightly okay, then it just bombed.
My counselors told me I'd have to bring that grade up
if I want to stay UCLA eligible, so here I am again

in Geometry from the 9th grade as an 11th grader. FML.
I showed up an hour late, and was already 7 sections behind.
Hopefully, not everyone was as quick, so I caught up fairly fast.

I still hated it.

Got home at 1:30, ate some kfc, did hw[still doing it, omfg]
took a break with some nutella and pan de sal.

I'm still doing hw.

It sucks not having a camera.
Will be back this week though.
HOPEFULLY!

be chill

Hard.

2009-07-12T02:53:00.000-07:00

Its becoming a tough job to handle, just trying to be myself.
I haven't been feeling like "me" lately, been trying to keep things out of my mind
by busying myself with tasks, like playing RO or Halo 3, or even OMGPOP.

Why am I having such a hard time getting back in the game?
Where is my mind at? Why isn't it where its supposed to be?
I want to be UPLIFTED, and encouraged!
I can't just act like a tough guy and do this on my own anymore.
I'm not fronting anymore. I need support. Whether I admit that to everyone or not.

I'm stressing hardcore.
Schools coming up. How am I gonna deal?
AP exams and SATs and ACTs..

Books, tests, quizzes, books, reviews, books..

It'll be more of me than I am part of me.
But I can't let that happen.
I want to be in control of everything there is about me.
But why can't I feel that?
I don't even know whats driving me to write this all.
Its all coming from my feelings, I guess. My mood is encouraging this.

Maybe I'm just lonely.

Hiking

2009-07-09T22:20:00.000-07:00

Was intense and brutal on me. It challenged my physical and mental well being, and that of some of my youth group. While some of my youth group is currently in the PI and Cambodia for missionary work, who was left of us decided to go stay and do some fun hiking.

Who came:
Me
Stephen
Kuya Dino
Kuya Les
Kuya Wes
Janine
Maureen
JR

wish more came! But its good, we got all the athletics in our youth group to go. LOLZ jk,
It was fun. Hard, but fun. We should do something like that every weekend!

Lazy

2009-07-07T00:35:00.001-07:00

I'm on it. I'll operate this in person one day

To update, not much has been going on lately for me to blog,
just been doing the thing and chillin..been getting my middle schooler on,
i've been sucked into Ragnarok and Anime again.
Both were back habits to break, but I'm in control.

Talked to dq tonight, WOMP the call dropped cause the phone ran out of battery..
Ate all day,

I gotta start the P90x soon..
Trying to put everything off, but its gonna end up coming back to me eventually!
Been staying up late a lot, I would always have plans to make a post, but I wouldn't
when I wanted to cause I'd get sidetracked watching Reborn..

I need new flatheads.
Not much of a post, but stay tuned for pics on wednesday.
Hiking in Alum Rock park.

be chill

Rekindled Old Flames

2009-06-30T03:24:00.000-07:00

My love for Anime and Manga has been rekindled.
Japan, in general, was my ideal place to live next to the PI again.
I remember, as a child, GUNDAM was the series that got me started into the
Japanese language and culture, and sparking my love to build things and watch anime.
I guess, overall, this is what led me to deciding that I want to build things for my future career,
but fk what you heard. I've been an OG Gundam fan, even BEFORE Gundam Wing aired on TOONAMI on Cartoon Network, my relatives would be sending me Mecha and Gundam related goodies from Japan, and I suppose thats what got me into it.
I've loved Gundam for such a long time, Gundam Wing, 8th MS Team, Gundam 0080, Gundam 0083, G Gundam, SD Gundam, Gundam Seed Destiny, so many more... I've watched all these series dearly, and my inner child, and future adult, both awaken when they see this.

Sorry for the history lesson, but here are pics so you can understand why I enjoy building these machines.

Partying and Preparing

2009-06-28T00:31:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty long, I thought it was going to be uneventful, but I'm glad I decided to just get out of bed today and say "I wanna go." Started out by going out to Keilani's 7th birthday, daaang happy b-day my little Lilo! You're getting old, making me like a dinosaur girrl. Ahaha jk, it was kinda boring for me at the beginning because I was a teen in a little kid party, but soon Ate Millie and Kuya Bryan and Lenlen came. We left early to go to costco to get ready for our smoothie sale for camp fundraising tomorrow. Not that much pics but enjoy.

Big thanks to my buddy MICHELLE ESTOLAS. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. YOU'RE THE BEST. =)

Stay tuned for an update, gonna be taking pictures of
-Graduation Honors
-Swimming
-Red Robins
busy day tomorrow, but thats what I do best

be chill

Recap of Wednesday

2009-06-25T02:38:00.000-07:00

Pretty chill day. Woke up at around 9 or 10, but didnt get out of bed that quickly.
Talked to dq for a bit before I got picked up for Transformers 2 with the youth. Went to Great Mall Century Theaters, waited in line for it, but we got there early so we had really good seats, right in the center. We took up the whole row, lmao. Transformers 2 was worth the hype, pretty much non-stop action, and even the talking parts were pretty actiony. LOL. After the movie, got home, ate some ice cream, played some Combat Arms, talked on the phone with Erica[favorite new youth buddy!], watched/listened to some vids of Ate Mye singing, boiled some soup, blogged.

Heres the video of the day, feat. my Ate!

Everythings just a prayer away. Some pics of what I'm handling right now

Sometimes..

2009-06-23T04:48:00.001-07:00

I wish that things turn out a little differently for me,
instead of me just guessing right all the time.

"I'm doing this all so you can see
So you can see
I'm doing what I can to be your man
I'm making all these plans for you to understand
I notice you
Please notice me too."

From 93 till

2009-06-22T04:16:00.000-07:00

Thanking God For..

2009-06-21T03:06:00.000-07:00

More to come

Finally, a (somewhat) decent entry.

2009-06-19T02:04:00.000-07:00

So, with everything thats been going on, I haven't been finding enough time to give a 'real post' as of late. I don't really have much of an excuse for it, but lately I didn't have anything good to blog about. Instead of talking about the next pair of shoes or a hat I'm going to buy, I want to just sit down and let you guys really...take a breath of air and really appreciate what you guys have. You guys take the simple little things all for granted, and I'm no exception.
I tend to forget that I have a nice warm comfy bed that I lay in all day..[and tend to forget to fix..]

and a fridge full of the bombest drinks and string cheese someone could want.
Not to mention clothes to wear, and even a place to live!

So many people don't have the luxuries we all have, which makes me
so upset to see food unfinished or someone just blowing money away for
stupid reasons. The money or food or clothing we don't enjoy or use anymore
could be given to someone who would need it far more than we do now.
Traveling at SF a few weeks ago with my family, we saw a lot of homeless people downtown..
My brother asked if they were looking for something, my mom told him "Don't look. They don't have anywhere to go" and I couldn't help but feel a ring in my heart.

I was giving out attitude about not picking up the new Post fitted that The Hundreds was selling, but when you don't even know when your next meal is gonna be, I'd skip the hats for a while.

Talking to DQ lately has gone scarce. She busy. I busy. We busy. It's alright though, because I'm learning to deal without her. It just makes the wait worth it when she comes back.

DQ(3:59:12 PM): this one's for you..

DQ (3:59:12 PM): http://4.media.tumblr.com/mOLZv5jkWoj6uywvtnVaiESzo1_500.jpg

private bippo (3:59:32 PM): really.

DQ (3:59:39 PM): yes, really.

Its just those little things you gotta appreciate. I love my life, and I thank God everyday for giving me another day just to wake up and be totally fine. I'm not the perfect person, and I don't plan on being one. But I found people that accept me and I'm still trying to improve, for myself, not for nobody else.

Just hear me out: Appreciate what you have, whether its a family member pissing you off, or something else bringing you down. Just take some time to recognize them and thank them..
Even though they push you its only made to be good for you.

Loving the musicality.. learned the song for my guitar in just 20 minutes or so, awesome.
This pretty much describes how I feel, but in a guy perspective, maybe if I get a new video recording camera, I'll start making legit covers?

I want to accomplish a lot this summer, don't stop me now.
God bless, be chill

Blehh

2009-06-18T01:35:00.003-07:00

I hope I get accepted into The Heavyweights.

dqdqdqdqdqdqbabyyy.
Help me with CS4.
I'm not so pro.

Pickups x FML

2009-06-15T17:47:00.001-07:00

AP Lit hw FTL
3 Reaalllyyy long books,
3 really tedious assignments.

But whatever ya gotta do to stay on top.
For UCLA.

..for dq!

Last Day.

2009-06-12T00:52:00.000-07:00

Finally made it.
Didn't really feel like the last day of school.
Sa'll good though.

Plan to be doing lots of stuff this summer:
-P90?!
-Getting my gym card
-AP Lit Summer Assignments
-GET MY GRAILS
-Be serious about my thoughts
-Prep for next year's classes

to name off the top of my head, stay tuned for more stress and updates.

GOT A NEW PHONE,
Samsung Eternity?! "Iphone killer", nattttt. Still pretty cool, though.if I had your number before, please IM me on AIM or message me your #!

Got that breath of fresh air, pal

More Pickups x Finals Thoughts 2

2009-06-10T23:40:00.001-07:00

One of my Vans Grails. Left to go:
003 White W)taps
Cream Supreme Checkerboard Half Cab
Proper Chukka Del Barco
Duke Kahanamoku Authentics...

Too many to list. If you know my ISS, my WTB listing has them.
I thought I did pretty solid on the History Final. Expecting the best from that.
Biology..thought I did good, but reviewed it with the upperclassmen in my period.
We didn't do so much. Heres hoping Mr.Mohammad was nice enough to curb the grade,
since all of us "smart kids of the class" did badly on it.

Expecting my AA Hoody in the mail tomorrow.
Last day of school tomorrow.

Going to hang out with a good friend of mine! :)
Hopefully..haha.
It's finally over...

"heres hoping you're going all out because we've finally reached the final stretch. Go out with a bang, because we both know you're going somewhere. <3"

Pickups x Final day 1

2009-06-10T00:39:00.000-07:00

Finals for Spanish and PE.
I died on Spanish, but w/e. PE I killed. I got first for 7 cougars.
I'm gonna miss PE, Even though everyone hated the Coach,
I thought he was pretty sensible. He was strict and, coming from his past,

he has a right to push us high school students to our limits.
The man has flatlined twice in his life time, and he has more injuries
than most FAMILIES experience in their lifetimes.

Came home. Got my second pack today. Mom got mad cause its "from strangers" or w/e, and that I'm "underaged" and can't send MO's but w/e. She ain't paying for it. Whats her problem.

I love how this was all for 10. Hello, re-sale?!

Pretty confident about tomorrow. History + Bio finals. I've been keeping my place in those 2 classes, and I'm not about to let it slip now.

"So you and me haven't been talking that much. It's understandable, with finals and everything, all that you've worked for is coming down into these last few days. Just pull through a little longer, you can do this. You got someone else by you but I just want you to know I'm still supporting you fully and I'm gonna keep praying for you."

for now, be chill

Last on the list.

2009-06-09T02:04:00.001-07:00

Name: Jeffrey
Date: 6/9/2009
Colorgenics Number: 13056247

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Next on my list

2009-06-09T01:48:00.000-07:00

finals for spanish in a few hours.
I'm not that worried about it.

Seeing all these pictures of the FH3001's got me so pumped.

Beautiful beyond belief.

It'll hurt my wallet hard, but damn these are so worth it.
I'm getting my AA Hoodie and HUF Chukkas tomorrow, or hopefully today[since its 2am on Tuesday]

Will update with pics on that with my next entry.
I've been starting to do 100 push-ups before I go to bed everyday.
We aren't doing anything much anymore, and my last day of PE is tomorrow[technically today]
So this will benefit me. No flabby arms for me! I got plans to work out in the summer.
I want my 6-pack back. I only had it from 6th-8th grade ish cause I was so skinny. HAHA,
but I guess all my muscle is going to my legs..cause my calves are huge as hell..

Oh well.
This post was random.
I'm going to go brush my teeth, do pushups then go to bed.

be chill

..

2009-06-07T02:07:00.001-07:00

UN-DSed my pinstripe fitted today.

Things are starting to get rough again.
I kind of looked forward to SF today, but ehh.
Turned out to be a major tourist thing for my relatives,
and I didn't get anything done for myself. It's alright tho,
I have lots more opportunities to go here than they do,
and they should enjoy it while they can.

No pics up, figured that the memory of just spending
time with them on my own would be suitable.

Came home around 10, burned the photos onto a CD for them
to watch as a slideshow on my brother's laptop.

Talked to some people,
came up with this lame post.

So now, I know the truth.
You said not to get attached but. Hey. I'm stubborn,
you are also. I got a sample of what kind of Queen you are,
and I guess you don't disappoint.
I was very shocked by this, but at the same time not surprised.

I'm hoping church later today will get my mind off of it.
Right now, He's the only thing keeping me from going crazy now.

Awesome.

2009-06-05T16:08:00.000-07:00

Reached my 100th blog post today, yay me?
I've been getting really lazy lately with my posts, like 1 or 2 pics or vids.
Not really saying much. I don't write essays like I used to, but I'm not just gonna
give you guys a picture book.

We'll start off with good news. Supposedly, my surprise pack from HUF came in today, not so bad for 10. I didn't get no samples or anything like that, but hey. Pretty good, needed some new hats.

Waiting on a second one, if there IS a second one, cause I sent both of my 10 dollar money orders on the same day. Maybe this is a 20 dollar box. Dunno. Anyone got suggestions for what I should do with the stickers? Send me suggestions, you know how to contact me.

Later on, going to some "Hip Hop" concert meeting thing I guess w/the youth.
IFYOUREREADINGTHIS: Don't worry. I'm gonna ask him tonight. We'll get this worked out, I promise! [Sorry, no pics. We talked over this.]

Hmm.
Pretty good post, I think they should always be like this. Keeps the blog good w/content.
SF tomorrow, maybe i'll pick up another package. Who knows.

till then,
be chill

Independent

2009-06-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

Ooh
Theres just something about her..

Basically

2009-06-03T00:32:00.001-07:00

man and woman getty 1, originally uploaded by Michael Nishida..

How I want it

Back to square one

2009-06-02T23:10:00.000-07:00

And you know I don't like it,
but I have to atone for the sins I've done somehow.

Why does it feel like this is the longest week of school ever?

8 days left. Feels like 80 in my book.
I still got so much crap to do..

Promise.

2009-06-01T01:20:00.001-07:00

Dear Ashley,

2009-05-31T00:15:00.000-07:00

"Thank you very much for always being here for me. Lately things have been hard,
and I didn't really realize how much you've been trying for me. I guess since I felt
like you would always be here, I took you for granted. And then, when things started
to get hard and you weren't here anymore, I knew I had to have you around still. Why am I feeling this way? I don't know. And I really shouldn't try to find out, but whatever it is I don't want it to stop.

I'm thankful that you care for me so much and I appreciate that you take time out of your way to really treat me like I actually mean something to someone. I can say out of all the people that I talk to about my problems you're the only one that tries to do something to help me out, and thats something rare to find in someone nowadays.

Idk what to feel right now, but I'm sure I'll get over it later. Right now all I can do is feel appreciative that you're still around and willing to handle all the problems and trouble that I bright you. I don't deserve you the way that you say that I do. I'm very very sorry. I love you and I hope you can realize what message I'm trying to get across."

Streessssssss....

2009-05-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

Is my bestfriend.

Just got the email from SchoolLoop about my approval into AP Lit..

Just look what we gotta do..

FML.

Flickr

2009-05-28T01:29:00.001-07:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

I hate

2009-05-26T22:32:00.001-07:00

Spanish 2 with so much passion.

I'm pretty sure I'm taking it again next year. FML.

be chill, cause right now i'm not.

Memorial Day

2009-05-25T22:09:00.000-07:00

My regards to all those veterans, and those who passed away
defending us all in this country. You guys keep this country real.

Today, went to Alum Rock park with my family
and some of the members of the church to have a picnic.

Went mountain biking.
Pretty good, my legs were sore afterward.

Tasty BBQ.

All time favorite in Liquid Form.

My weekend plans/update

2009-05-22T03:40:00.001-07:00

Daily confession: "So. I admit that you are really fun to talk to. We've both been busy lately, but in the moments that I still get to talk to you, you make me smile. Change everything else about us, but at least keep that the same. That's just another thing on my short list of stuff that keeps me going."

Today I got tons of stuff to do at school..
-Test in history,
-gotta do powerpoint SOON..hopefully before the weekend starts.
-Turn in 50-vocab word story.
-Ask Mr.Mohammad about my grade
-Submit Link crew application
-Ask Mrs.Barth about AP Lit

Later tonight..
-Youth Hour
-Prepare for Saturday's plan

My life is always so busy, but its what keeps things exciting.

One of two things I wish I had with me right now.

be chill

Stress x Vent pt 2 x Epiphany

2009-05-21T02:05:00.000-07:00

It's building.
It only hit me today
that theres not that many weeks of school left.

I gotta get my act together FAST.
I've stalled too long.

My mom gave me a huge reality check, "If you're happy with the grades you're getting now so be it" "...but I'm not going to be happy with them"

The pressure is collapsing on me.
My ambitions in the first place came upon 2 very different options..

-Go to SDSU move back to SJ after I was done with all 4 years.
OR
-Apply CC, After 2 years, transfer to UC _____. Move back to SJ.

The second choice is longer, but a lot more beneficial.
Out of all my choices, UCLA UC Davis and UC Santa Barbara came to mind.

UCLA comes out on top. Academics and athletics.
Its a place where I can prove to myself what I can be.
I'm not gonna let all this dreaming and hopes go out for nothing.
Looking more into detail later, I'll tie in my CC major and my UC major
and become something great. I'll finally be something my parents, and myself,
can be proud of.

All heart, do work, nothing but love.
The only 3 sayings I need to keep me going 2 more years
of High school.

Sophmore year is practically done. The next 2 years of upperclassmen status
are gonna be what matter.

Unlike the other 9129319231 kids who
get these types of sweaters,
I'll be one of the few dozen
that would be able to say I actually
go there.

This is a test of my mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual limits. There is no turning back now.
Its time to start being a man.

Vent pt 1

2009-05-17T22:41:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I've been on this thing,
I almost forgot that it still existed.
Kinda funny when you put so much work into something
and it just ends up collapsing.

Kinda like on friday. We got 5th.
I wanted ANYONE to win, but them..
but I guess things just don't happen to go that way.

Then again, not a lot of things have gone my way this weekend.

In all honesty, I feel like I've done a lot of growing up within this weekend.
I learned to handle things in a more mature way, and I'm letting go
of my old bad habits. If not all of them, most of them. I can't do that anymore,
Sophmore year is almost over. I fucked up this year, and next year won't be any easier.

2 ap classes, officer for kababayan, ASB hopeful,
I can't let anything slow me down. I said I'm going to be the person I know I can be,
and I don't want to front with this also and say that I can do it all when I really can't.

too many things going through my head at once..
more to come tomorrow.

Blogging..

2009-05-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

Is on a temporary break while I get focused on school.

My grades are..not as good as they were in the past,
and right now I gotta stay with it at least until June comes.

Pray

2009-05-06T22:35:00.001-07:00

That my Lola will be safe through her Heart Surgery.

She's gone through too much, and I can't let her go through it alone anymore.

I want her to realize that all of us are here to support her.
I love you lola

I've realized

2009-05-01T00:58:00.001-07:00

That I'm not the person I thought I was.

And with the help of a certain somebody, I am trying to be.
It will be hard and long until 6/21, but until that time comes
I'll try my best to make the most of what I have.

Focusing on church and school, the only places that should really matter right now
besides family.

If it means that I have less posts on here, then so be it

if for nobody in particular, I'm in this for myself
thank you to all that made me realize how much different I am than what I believed I was.

God bless

Lol

2009-04-28T21:32:00.000-07:00

It's me.

Recap of My Weekend.

2009-04-26T22:02:00.000-07:00

Pics for the most part, sorry I haven't been updating lately.
1st batch is at Angelica's B-day Party. Happy birthday! I have your present.
Hope you like it, I really hope you do.

2nd batch goes to Yosemite.

Wed/Thurs Blog

2009-04-24T01:01:00.001-07:00

Cause I was too tired from yesterday to do one.
Small post for today.
Our school faced against Leland, Leigh, and Silver Creek.
I thought it was going to be difficult[for me at least],
but it turns out we were doing pretty good.

Overall,we won all 3 I think,
and I'm guessing after Top 8 we're going to be #1 in CCS?

Cool beans.

Angelica's birthday party today.
Hopefully she likes the present..
I finally get to meet her mom too!

Pics will be provided later.

until then,
be chill

Its hootttt

2009-04-22T00:47:00.000-07:00

Like fiyah.

Today was a pretty decent day, better than yesterday,
but something felt off about today.
The heat? I'm still dealing,

but thank God that it is finally gonna get some coolness in here..
if you can call it coolness that is.
Monday and today, mid 90s.
Tomorrow hopefully if weather.com is still accurate, low 80s.

Track Quad-Meet at home. Silver Creek, Leland, and Lee.
Ain't tripping, it's our home turf. We got this.
We all gotta try our best though because we won't know who they're coming up with.

Didn't go to track practice today unfortunately,
because I had to talk with Mr.Mohammad about stuff,
and cause of a speech gave to us by Ate RA and the other main officers.

She held an emergency meeting for us, I knew it was bad, but I didn't think it was
that bad until I actually heard it myself, with all the old tribes 08 participants, and new freshman faces.

"I am so disappointed in you guys. If we're going to still be in this, I want us to go out there and take 1st place. If we don't, then I'm not even sure if I want to do this anymore" - Ate RA

I started getting heated by this point. I didn't want to point fingers, and be a hypocrite for not showing up to practices either, but the words that I heard were just pumping me up to just get up and start learning dances and skit plot right now. Kababayan is known as EV's most unified club. We need to show them that wasn't just a one or two or three time thing. It's got to be a LEGACY.

Believe me or not, I want to be more than just a participant in the future years of this club.
To be honest.. I want to help run it. I want to be part of what makes this club so unified and so great. I have ambition, and although I admit I'm not the most 100% perfect attendance, perfect showmanship, perfect leadership type of skills, I'm willing to work very hard because of all the dedication this club has shown me. I want to be President of Kababayan Club. Not just for the title, not for status, but because I feel like I owe it to everyone else to start stepping up and making the other schools know we ARE a FAMILY, not just a club. I want to be the next Kuya Michael, next Ate RA. I am just so serious about it.

Isang Bagsak. Do work. Family.
All things we shout at ends of practice,
all things we live outside of practice.
And I couldn't be more happier with that.

And since I got my Pinoy on... LUMPIA MODED FACE WAT?!
be chill

420

2009-04-21T01:14:00.000-07:00

Happy weed day everyone,
haha sike. I dont do that ish,

but to those of you Bob Marley's out there,
hope you enjoyed your holiday. HAHA.

Today was freaking hot.
Cargo shorts, and a regular tee.
Hell, I wanted to just go in a beater, but the
school would probably give me a citation or something -_-;

Yosemite again this Sat, pics will be provided up this time.

Celtics vs Bulls game. Amazing. Word to Ray Allen for making the winning 3 pointer.
Couldnt get to watch the whole Spurs vs Mavs game but I'm sure it was cool too.

Track meet on Wednesday. Quad meet baby, Leland vs Lee vs Silver Creek.
I gotta PR PR PR PR. I hit 15.9ft last time on long, cleared 5' on high. I gotta go farther.

I gotta Julius Caesar play to do tomorrow.
Clitus ftmfl.

People have been asking for updated pics of my room, nothing really special lol

God, and Baskin Robbin's gift to man: The Cappucino Blast.

miss you miss you miss youuu
be chill

4/19/09 2:44 AM

2009-04-19T02:44:00.000-07:00

I am currently satisfied.
I am not too happy, but I am not as depressing as I was before.
Shoot, this spring break I've been getting progressively more and more happy with myself.

I learned to take things more on the chill side, and just go with the flow.
I have always known how to have fun, but lately i've been having FUN.
Party after party, picnic after hangout after Denny's after movie night,

it's been chill. I need to have more days like this in the summer.
to you, I'm sorry that I haven't been the most easiest person in the world to deal with.
You ask things of me, and I'm sorry that I don't give them to you the way you want it.
if this is any different, here it is. I'm mentioning you in my blog, aren't I?

You make me happy and I like the way things are right now. Thank you
for making my spring break, truly a spring break.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ANNIE!
My gosh I wish I could make it to your party, but I have other plans.
I am still taking your prom pictures though, right? :o)
I hope so, hahahah

This. Is an amazing idea. This, inspires me..

Big props to TEEZiLLA on Flickr for coming up with this darling
book for you and your boyfriend. This, by far, is one of the
most well thought-out and non cliche things I've seen
given to a significant other...ever!

Looking at those pictures make me think about how lucky I am to have someone like that, and quite honestly I feel happy that we at least some sort of relationship together. Friends, more than friends, boy and girlfriend, whatever we may be in the future I'm alright with it. Talking everyday, it's nice.

I don't want to get too attached, but hey. Enough of that, can we just enjoy where we are now? hahah.

I signed up for FSF today. Sh*t was confusing. All of my posts were being "held for moderation", wtf like the Mods on FSF have enough time to read every single FSFers posts? Probably a bug..the ISSers told me that there was a lot of them anyways. It's just a temporary thing, only when I have nothing to do on ISS.

Today was Jerrel's party. Happy 12th boy. My little sister went to Kenya Dance. Hate you Erin.
WDYWT:
Ray Ban eyeglasses
Green Lacoste Tee
GAP Cargo Shorts
Beater Sandalwoods.

Fit pic tomorrow I guess? Haha, will edit when I get it

Later tomorrow[today]:
-Church
-Hw -_-
-Go to sleep early for school SIGH.

till next time
be chill

Update.

2009-04-17T04:42:00.001-07:00

New look, new day.
It feels right to be starting fresh, this time..
no pictures this post. Refer to my flickr account if you need
some of my life in photo form...

Mindaaayyy tagged me!
I've been meaning to get to it.
Lately shes been helping me through some things
and idk, I felt like we're getting to know each other better? LOL
Anyways..

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. Everyone has gone through certain "phases" in their life, such as a geeky phase, ect... For me, although I am who I am today[random as hell], I still retain bits all of my phases throughout my childhood and middle school years: My gamer side, anime/k-drama obsessed side, preppy side[American Eagle, Abercrombie, ect], fatass side[LOVE to eat], rock side[Anberlin, Dance Gavin Dance, Cartel just to name random bands], and even a bit of a feminine side[sanrio. LOL.] Though I don't heavily focus on one particular side at one given time, it helps me in being the people person I am today.

2. My last name is Bautista. This is referred to by many as the "Nguyen of the Philippines" by my dad, because it is a very common last name back in the PI. A lot of famous singers [Mark Bautista, Justin Bautista, ect] from the PI, even the WWE's very own Bautista. LOL. Despite the claim, I haven't met that many other Bautistas in my life time, other than my relatives and maybe 3 or 4 other people..ever. My middle name is Allen...

3. If its my first time trying something new, I'll try my best to do it over and over again until I can do it at least decent. I am very OCD about that, and one of my biggest pet peeves is not being good at something that I do a lot.

4. I get mistaken for every other asian ethnicity, but I am 100% full filipino. Lately, I've been getting dark which I thought would help identify me easier, but instead of Chinese, Japanese, Viet... people start thinking I'm Cambodian, Thai, HAWAIIAN?! -__- My parents are both Tagalog, and as well as my grandparents, although I have friends who are helping me try to understand Ilocano.

5. Music has always been one of my favorite getaways from the world. From as far back as I could remember, I would playback songs I love over and over again. From my childhood, I remember the first CD I personally owned was the Pokemon: The First Movie soundtrack. I would listen the remix to the theme constantly, because it would get me pumped to do whatever I had to do during the day.

6. Going back to 5, I taught myself how to play guitar in the 7th grade when my parents bought me a guitar for Christmas. Learning from a chord book was never my style, but when I started learning tabs on ultimate-guitar.com to my favorite songs, I got on a learning streak and now can successfully play by ear and familiar sounding notes.

7. Although I have only one true brother, I've come to accept that I have many other "siblings", all of which are sisters. My older "sister", Jennika Esoy has been so good to me and makes me remember that I have someone to go to. (: My younger "sister", Erin Bautista. You know, if I wanted to she really could pass for my real little sister. But she's too mean. Still, I can't live without her. Love you both.

8. I over explain things too much. Which is probably why these facts are so long.

9. I am a huge Pokemon fan. I have every Version from Red/Blue, to Platinum today. When I met my two friends Tony and Stuart in the 5th grade, we made an agreement to stay under one starter pokemon type no matter what. Tony would be fire, Stuart would be grass. I was water, and from that point I became familiar with Squirtle, Totidile, Mudkip, and Piplup.

10. I used to be very chubby and almost to the point where I can say I was obese as a child. But, as I reached 5th grade I started to really become self conscious and pushed myself to eating less and exercising. I have lost all the baby fat[hopefully!] and I'm glad that I decided to make that choice. I am currently helping my little brother who is going through the same thing I went through x10[damn you yogos and hot cheetos]

11. Raised in a Christian home. Before I turned 7-8, my parents were Catholic. All I remember from those days were laying on my mom's lap trying to go to sleep cause it was so early in the morning, and waiting in a big line with my grandma and having to swallow a nasty piece of bread. As soon as we made the change, I knew I would enjoy it. Almost double the years later, my family and I are still attending Light Bearers Fellowship Church, formerly known as Fil-Am Baptist Church.

12. Most of my childhood was regretfully spent on N64 and PS1. It wasn't that bad then, but looking back I wish that I could've spent more time with my grandpa before he passed away. ILY Lolo Roger.

13. The feeling I have most often other than happiness, is guilt. It's a very bad feeling to have, especially when you know you can't do anything to fix it.

14. One of my main goals other than to be successful, have a family, ect. is a mere simple task: To make my parents proud of me. Seems easy, but despite their not that tough standards, I always seem to end up short. I want to be able to make them happy that they have me.

15. I'm always trying to do something new. Whether its learning a new language, trying to jerk [lol], or getting to know someone, I have to change up my daily routine.

16. I am very affectionate. Those who have known me a while know this very clearly. I have a need, even more so than eating or drinking, to give my affection and care to someone during the day. If I don't, then I can't say that I had a good day that day.

17. I have the ability to make most people feel like old friends around me, even if I've just met them for the first time. It really helps my social life, and no matter where I'm going, if theres people, I'm bound to make friends.

18. College Bound: My goals back then were to shoot for UCs such as Berkeley and LA, but due to my lack of effort, I've come to a conclusion that I want to shoot for something not as high such as SDSU. Back up plan? West Valley for 2 years, THEN transfer to UC Davis / UC San Diego :)

19. I'm not sure what I really want to do with my life yet. I love being outdoors and being active, but at the same time I want to be cozy and comfy inside. Possible careers I've thought of in the past include Wedding planner, Nature Photojournalist [Nat. Geo, Travel Channel, ect], Chef, Nurse, and College History Professor. These were all on choice and not by my parent's plans for me at all, although I'm pretty sure these would be jobs they want me to be in anyways.

20. I like someone. Things are difficult where they are right now because of distance, but I don't want to push it too far too soon. I want her to really see that I'm in this for the long run.

21. I hate the fact that people call me a hypebeast based on a shirt or a fk backpack I wear..hello? Everyones got one nowadays, I'm not that much different -_-; You probably only call me that because you have no real sense of style yourself. I am making an effort to become well liked and successful. I have friends to support me, but I want to be able to do it on my own when I have to.

22. I hate cocky people. Everyone has their faults and flaws, and trying to cover them up won't make them go away.

23. I sound different on the phone than I do in person. My voice tends to go really low on the phone for some reason, so I have to talk in a more nasally voice so people can hear me -_-

24. I am not into Huf because of the hype. I feel as though I have history with Huf through my cousins, because they have been wearing it and introduced it to me all the back to 2003. I've always liked the style of clothing and their hats, and I will keep being a fan and customer till I don't know when.

25. I want to be able to look back at this when I'm an adult, college done, family settled, and wonder if I'm still the same as I was back then..

DONE, haha that was a long time.
As for people I tag..I already know you ISSers gonna get tagged eventually. So I'll tag personal friends

Diana-chan
Big Sis Jenn
Ading Erin
Ashley
Jessica Kim
Tiffany
Jodelaine
Angelic
Angelica D!
Angela Channn
Angela Maximoo [thats a lotta angels]
Jizel
Janet
Janine
Jenny Kim
Jessica Ramiro [thats a lotta J's]

too lazy to put 25. Like half of you even read my blog. LOL.
be chill

To recap

2009-04-17T01:12:00.000-07:00

I've had a busy week.
Yesterday we had our collab spring break picnic chill thing.

Light by The Bay[San Leandro], Light Bearers[San Jose], Delta Baptist [Pittsburgh].

Sorry for pics, they ain't mine [credits to John Michael, LBTB]
Sportsfreak pose.

Baby got back, Athlete of the Week cuhhz

I have the "Eric Or x DXC" expression going on.

Dr.Pepper x Sweet Spicy Chili Doritos = Epic

Cause we moded to the max LOL

Tonight

2009-04-15T00:55:00.001-07:00

Was better.
=)
A lot better.

SHE WOULD KNOW HAHAHA.
Tease.

SF Trip ft. Youth

2009-04-06T22:37:00.000-07:00

Title says it all. Hit up Union Square for some cheesecake and shopping, mostly cheesecake.

Adam's PB Cheesecake. Crack.

Word up.

WDYWT.

Saw Kanye looking at clothes inside. Jk.

Latest pickup, got the last size 9.5...

Wish I got these those. No size 9/9.5 though.
Be chill

Reno

2009-04-06T22:04:00.000-07:00

Haven't Updated

2009-04-06T21:36:00.000-07:00

In so long.

For many reasons:
1. Lazy
2. School
3. Track
4. Lazy
5. Haven't had the time, been going out so many places

To recap on what I need to blog on:
-Reno
-SF Trip
-Church Anniversary/Kuya Raud's Inauguration

MANY THINGS HAVE GONE,
MANY THINGS HAVE COME.

WHATS GOING TO STAY?
MY BLOG
MY FAITH
MY MUSIC!

Be chill, this is just a reminder blog

What a bad IDEA

2009-03-24T23:52:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry. I messed up. Grades and my parents got to me, and though you came out to me
in kindness, I blew up on you. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. It's only hurting us both.
Won't you come talk to me about this?

I'm never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery
Than she desert me

Sunday, 3/22/09

2009-03-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

I wish I was in this pic, but I guess its my calling to be taking these things,
not to be in them. HAHAH

Today was Delano's visiting day/Kuya Jon's farewell type of gathering. He spoke to us about his personal testimony, Chelsie included! It was nice to hear from them all. As much as we'll miss Kuya Jon, FSB needs them more. LBFC has more than enough leaders to take care of us all.

On top of that, I didn't get a chance this weekend to talk to her.
I could sense she was upset, or didn't want to deal with me, or something..
But whatever it was, I just want a chance to talk it out. Why won't you answer your phone?
I call and call, and it rings, I know you hear me calling you. But you just refuse to answer me.
It's not that I'm mad, that's the last thing I'll ever be with you. I just want to know if you still care. Nothings changing. I can still wait for you. You're important enough to me for me to make
that statement. I mean it. You're on and off with me, but I still cling to you. I have everything I can want! Like I said before, it's you I lack. I pray that you can come back to me. That I can get a text..or call..or SOMETHING back. If nothing, I'll take it you're just done. But I still won't give up. Not yet.. You just don't understand how much I'm willing to go through for you! I know you have a lot to think about, but then again who doesn't? Just give me some thought..like how I give you every night.. ..I really do think that way.

Just had to add this somewhere. LOL

Be chill

Youth Concert.

2009-03-23T00:22:00.000-07:00

Words cannot do this event justice. It was great for everyone.
It got me thinking again.

Thursday Recap x Friday Recap

2009-03-21T01:22:00.000-07:00

Recycled pic, but it'll have to do.

Thursday was just straight up long and boring. I was anxious all day, getting ready for the meet. At 7th period, Mrs.Barth wouldn't let me go because Coach Hubbs didn't put me in the email by accident. We were only released 15 minutes earlier, but someone from my class who came back from the bathroom told me that he saw a bunch of people wearing track sweats getting ready to start leaving.. so I started freaking. I took time in class to change into my uniform and put my trainers on. As soon as the bell rang, I sprinted out of the door, and luckily for me they were all just getting dressed. I was on schedule again.
It was a while before Willow Glen came in, because they were running late, no buses so they drove in by car. We won. I did pretty decent, 15.11 on long jump.
Didn't bother to check my triple and high, lol.
Did 4x1 for fun. End Thursday.

You've been on the mind for a minute..can't you see you're in every part of my day?
From breakfast after I wake up, to before I fall asleep, you're all I think about.

Not a lot of people came to school today because of the threats. The swastika, the cut down trees, the white powder, all of which gabe everyone excuse from going to school. Having the typical school-strict asian parents I have, nonetheless I still had to go to. From periods 2-4, under 10 people were attending. 5 and 6? Not much higher, but still higher numbered 12-15ish. Didn't bother going to Mrs.Barth's class in 7th, cause she's an idiot. She's getting on my nerves big time.
Next year I won't have to deal with them, cause I'll have REAL teachers.

Went to youth hour.....I felt bummed. Everyones doing something, all I'm doing is what I always do- taking pictures and taping what goes on. Left out, but it's all good because everyone is putting their dedication into doing God's work. Word. ....Talked to Angelica. Man, you couldn't believe how happy I was when she stopped me. 90% of the time I was there, I was just sitting down and wanting to leave. I hope and pray I don't have this same attitude when it happens tomorrow. Everyone will be there, and I'll be the only one not laughing and having fun.

... and to you, I'm glad we had that talk. I know you're still unsure about things, but like I've told you before so many times, I'm always going to be here for you even if you decide in the end it isn't me. I love you and I hope you realize that I ain't going nowhere.

Be chill

Bleh

2009-03-19T01:34:00.001-07:00

Via Google.

Today zoomed by real fast, which might've been a good thing if I didn't have so many things going on tomorrow. Technically since its 1am right now, its already tomorrow.

Spanish was decent, got a lot of work done and hopefully it'll stay that way. Didn't get the chance to talk to her because we were working the whole time, but hopefully on Friday I can talk to Senora Baeza.

4th was okay, Math wasn't really the exciting today for me. Mrs.Santos knows how to blend in well..she looks like a student when she sits in the desks, everyone was going ?? looking for her.

6th was soooo dead. I was sleeping 70% of the time, and everyone in the back along with me also. Usually one of my better classes, but today not so much.

Practice was..kind of..good? We did our 'pre meet' warm up, a lap around the track and we split into two circles, giving 'high fives' as we run to the middle of the field and all do jumping jacks together as one team. After we do Cougar Spellout, we run to the middle and on 3 we go COUGAR.

I'm on the list for high and long jump. I'm feeling good about long jump, but not so much for high.
Hopefully someone can bring it home for us on high..that isn't me, LOL.
My form isn't very good, but I have confidence that I can go over it.

I talked to Deajjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj today.
It was good. What's not good?

I'm sick. Yeah, the day before the meet. I'm sick.
Cough, runny nose, stuffed up..the works,
I'm sickk as a dog, because I left the window open the night before. Fail.

If I just eat a good breakfast, drink lots of juice, and take medicine I'll be good..hopefully.
Pics will be provided after my meet.

Till then, imma just get a quick bite and then crash..
Be chill

Wat.

2009-03-17T04:10:00.000-07:00

Old Hair ftl. Fallout 3 ftw.

This week is going to be hectic.
I need to start doing some serious work,
like...if there was any day I meant that I needed
to start work, I would say it's today[tonight.]

Its 4 am, I have to wake up in 2 hours but I'm used to that.
My sleep pattern is pretty messed up since I slept at like
~6, when I got back from practice.
Woke up at like 11, 12-ish so its typical that I'm staying up.

Plans for the day-
Tuesday:
-Talk to Mrs.Rabago and change my English 3 to AP Lit.
-Talk to Senora Baeza about my late assignments.
-Talk to Mrs.Santos and ask for future work I can do[failing currently]
-Convince parents to buy me these Wtaps I see for cheap online.
-Practice practice practice my jump off. I messed up so badly today.

CONCERT ON SATURDAY UGHH.
WHY DO I FEEL SO UNPREPARED?
I feel as though I'm not going to be doing much.
But it's all good. I can take pictures, love what I do do what I love.
Need a LENS though. The kit is NOT going to do it.
I need a grip also, on the real. Its feeling imbalanced with the rest of the camera.

To cop list for the week:
-Those vans on ebay.
-OG Black/Neon Huf fitted.
-GRIP + LENS BY SAT.

I'm addicted to John Mayer's song, My Stupid Mouth.
And not cause Passion did a cover on it via Youtube. I've listened to it before then,
and I guess I love it now cause I can relate to it.

"Oh, the way she feels about me has changed Thanks for playing, try again. How could I forget? Mama said "think before speaking" No filter in my head"

I miss Jessica Kim. I miss Ashley! I miss Angel. Man, I even miss Kasie..
All of you, I miss you dearly. I talk to all of you, but it just doesn't seem like enough.
I have to see you all. All of you have parts of me that I can't get from anyone else!
I'll be praying for you guys, the concert, and everyone else. Hit me up for a prayer request, or if you're selling anything on my WTB on ISS hah.

Anyways guys this is all just from staying up too late, and I guess I think too much
When I have nothing else better to do. Time to write my History movie Response, then
off to dreamworld after a snack lulz.
Be chill

Pickup pt. 7

2009-03-14T01:36:00.000-07:00

Latest pickups.

Copped for 35 shipped, I'm not complaining.
They look really clean in person, they just
grew on me and the urge was just too much.

Copped for 4.15.
Carrebean Passion all day cuh.

BONUS: Word to my little sister Erin.
Stop messing around with her guys, geez. LOL SIKE.

Next to pickup:
-co.jp Argons
-Cayman Triax 95s
-Blue Satin fitted
-Benny Gold Argyle fitted
-Vintage Nike track jacket

If anyone is selling beater Vans from 9-9.5, hit me up.
Tomorrow I might be going to Pittsburgh to see DBC w/my youth.
More pics to come later tomorrow[today?]

Anyways, be chill..

Bay Area

2009-03-08T00:50:00.000-08:00

Scootered to Eastridge, met up with Mikey and Pat.
Fail, carrying 4 bottles of soda with you in a gym bag and having to carrying
a backpack with items still in it.

Oh well, heres some pics of the day

We were walking up to the food court to get some McDonalds.

I didn't have money tho, so I ate 2 bags of Funyuns and water.

Pat's d60 with my filter.

Word to Pat, Mikey, Rob, Jeremy, Justin, Jed, Rolo, and Mindy.

Most epic hype collab ever, Canon x Nikon

LOL. What a way to end the day

Commitment pt. 2 x Pickup pt. 6

2009-03-06T02:18:00.000-08:00

Spike up, kiddies.
Looked on schoolloop.
My grades are distgusting.
I know I can do so much better, but I don't know why they're so low.
I need to start doing way way way better,
if I want to go to another invitational, or even be ON the team.
Tomorrow I plan to talk with teachers I have low grades in.
The rest I can ease up a little, for now. Since tomorrow is grade cut offs.
FML.

All I want to do is do good in school now and get fit/buff.
Lawls, the looking good and dressing up comes next.
I guess.

Goals for today/tomorrow:
-Do late hw for Santos and ask about grades
-Finish Gliozzo hw and ask about grades
-Stay in during lunch in Baeza/Jordan? Ask about grades
-Go to youth hour

Thats pretty much all I got planned out for tomorrow.
All nighter tonight, straight up work work and working.

All I need is a sandwich, a pack of binder paper, a pencil, and
"Chill Underground Hip Hop" playlist on imeem.com, peep it. 8)

Laterz

Commitment.

2009-03-05T01:51:00.000-08:00

Time to get serious about work again cuz.

May not be a lot, but in addition to enrichment, and all the clubs, new things to adjust to,
and job[?], it'll be hectic.
But like I said in Mrs. Jordan's class, I like feeling the pressure. Living on the edge,
not too far off, but not too much in the safe zone,
It's kind of a thrill.

This looks like my kind of roller coaster.

Feeling the cutt.

2009-03-02T20:14:00.000-08:00

But ain't got no bladee.
It ain't yo actions, but what you sayy.

Went to some of the budget cut board meeting.
People from every district came, it was good seeing
familiar people.

Saw...her today.
It was alright.

I didn't really feel very magical like I thought it would be, lol.
But it's okay,
Nothing is ever perfect the first try.